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summary:

awake method

takes 5-30 minutes

optional subliminals

internal monologue/affirmations

optional visualization

testimonials mostly result in “mini shifts”

i made the following modifications:

nontraditional subliminals (looping instrumental soundtrack. this music would be playing in the area i’m aiming for, so no “breaking the immersion” here. added bonus: i already associate it heavily with my destination so it’ll help me keep it in mind.

doing this in the middle of the day, finally. still going to be in a comfortable position but hopefully i won't fall asleep this time.

final result: no shift.

started to definitely get the described symptoms! vision felt very odd and started to go black. i've had this happen before when i stared at things for a very long time and frankly i think it's because of the cones in your eyes getting tired. but it's still cool that i managed to sit still long enough to get that to start happening. unfortunately i couldn't keep my internal “what will i do today” monologue going for much longer than ten minutes, and then i got distracted and started thinking about tiktok, and then i did exactly what the method told me not to do and zoned out. and then i woke up five minutes later. the powernap was invigorating but it was literally the middle of the day so i don't know why i fell asleep.

changes for next time:

get a better sleep schedule.

(prev entry)

summary:

awake method

takes 5-30 minutes

optional subliminals

internal monologue/affirmations

optional visualization

testimonials mostly result in “mini shifts”

i made the following modifications:

nontraditional subliminals (looping instrumental soundtrack. this music would be playing in the area i’m aiming for, so no “breaking the immersion” here. added bonus is i already associate it heavily with my destination so it’ll help me keep it in mind

made sure i wasn't imminently hungry so the pickle thing didn't happen again

still in my bed, because the only time i'm finding to do this is at night, but i did sit up this time so i could see my room and focus on something concrete

i also decided to try and pavlov myself (associate a stimulus with shifting, and have this help me get into the mindset in the future). i figure an easy one to control is taste. because wintergreen lifesavers are such a specific flavor and i have a ton of them, i figure i can just use those. going forward, i’ll be eating one before every shifting attempt unless specified. should be noted that i won't let it dissolve in my mouth passively while i attempt shifting because the extra texture would probably distract me, and it's also a choking hazard if i were to fall asleep.

final result: no shift.

i sort of had the described visual darkness going on but i'm almost 80% sure it was because my eyes kept closing more and more. eventually i blinked and woke up ten hours later. that's a lesson to me to not do an awake method at night again. i did wake up with a bit of disorientation (probably from my last memory being sitting upright, and now i was laying down, plus the change of light) but otherwise didn't feel any “symptoms” or other effects that were described from the method or afterwards.

changes for next time:

stop doing this at night. it’ll just keep ending with me waking up a bit confused.