#opinions...

If I go donate again tomorrow:

-Have to leave work a little early to do it

-Less time to mentally prepare

-Scab on arm from last donation hasn't healed yet and for some reason the thought of them putting the needle through the scab makes me want to throw up

+More money faster

+Closer to getting this over with

If I wait til Sunday to donate:

+More time to mentally prepare

+Scab will be healed by then

-Less money

I was trying to craft some long and eloquent, point-by-point post but words fail me as I struggle with the ridiculousness of the situation. I’ve taken some time to really think about what has transpired and this is what I have to say:

All things taken out of context can be made to look like evidence that someone is crazy or has ill intentions.

The accusation that opinion blog imsebastiansatan poses any serious threat to anyone is a long shot. She refers to Sebastian’s penis as a croissant for christ’s sake. Sure, maybe some of the things she suggested in jest were out of line but to believe she would actually act on what she flippantly said in a chat that was mostly mindless gossip and a bunch of fangirls thirsting over a celebrity (which is just a micro-version of tumblr now that I think about it...) is beyond far-fetched. The person accusing Kevin of being “obsessed with sleeping with Sebastian” obviously took the chat way too seriously. There is no predatory goal, at least none beyond that of a regular fangirl. (Said blogger also used a birthday cake as evidence of Kevin’s delusional ways at one point... so I’ll just leave this here.) It’s one thing to not agree with someone or the way they run their blog, it’s quite another to accuse them of being a potential stalker.

I know I’m going to be lumped in as being part of the cult and that this post will seem like part of the backpedaling that was mentioned, but Kevin’s stated before that she wasn’t going to stick around much longer beyond TIFF, something a certain blogger knew about and even asked about on said chat (which I can prove). To insinuate that the deleting of the blog is happening simply because of this drama and because of an impending threat of exposure is completely false.

But as opinion blogs go, each narrative can be as valid as you make it and people are allowed to believe whatever it is that they want to believe. This is just my understanding of the situation as someone from what can be considered the “inside.” I won’t pretend I’m unbiased; I’ve definitely spoken more often and to further lengths with Kevin than I have with the other blogger involved but (I like to think) I’m not so blinded by faith, loyalty or friendship that I would lie to myself and others about a potential stalker.

I don’t mean to start anything, I just can’t stand to watch someone get maligned in the way Kevin was, and in such a cruel and unfounded fashion; I know I shouldn’t really deign this situation a response at all and so this will probably be deleted soon... but I needed to clear the air.

I actually don’t know the full details of this one; it was just something that was said, but my assumption is that there was a Sebastian-themed birthday cake involved(?), which honestly, not the most shocking or groundbreaking thing ever. It’s a pretty harmless gag. Can it be creepy? Sure. Is it an indication that someone is unhinged? Probably not.

I just wish for the final Produce 48 group to have an outstanding lineup, with a unique mix of both Korean and Japanese. This is because of all the eliminations we had before, we’ve lost many talented trainees, especially the Japanese trainees, from AKB48, HKT48, NMB48, etc., and I’m not liking it. It’s like that we’ve lost all of our favorites!

This is why I’m saying this now. If this Produce 48 final lineup comes up with little to no diversity, with rigged voting, and rushed, last-minute decisions by the judges, than I’ve officially lost hope in the group and the entirety of Produce 101. That’s it.