#onlymoveforward

The past is a wonderful place where we may have made great memories, had heartache or made mistakes. Its lovely to reflect on how we have improved or learned from our mistakes but we can only give our self a vaccation into our pasts not set up camp and live there.

Recently I did something I wasnt proud of (not any criminal offence), something that was extremely out of character for me where I have hurt someones feeling and also made myself look like an idotic mess. I have spent the last 7 days reliving this over and over feeling sick to my stumoch and torturing myself. Even though I have apologised and made amense with other parties involved I have hurt myself more than anyone else.

So I am now forgiving myself. I am concentrating on not making the same mistake again and trying to laugh it off. A little bird once told me its these times in life that makes a better you and you just need to keep moving forward.

So thats it...I am standing tall with my head held high and I am moving forward. Reminding myself whenever I look through my own archices to only give myself a few minutes and truly concentrate on the many many more good things that I have done.

One year on since you left our world. Hardly a day goes by your not in my thoughts but today of all days the thoughts are more painful and I can taste the bitter salt from my tears.

I hope so much you can see how loved you are. I hope you know how much you were admired. I hope you know how much you mattered. I hope you know that you made a huge impact in my life that will stay with me always. You have motivated me and inspired me both in work and as a human. I will never forget your words.