#onision rant

I'm still not over what they did to me. And I'm 27.... I don't think I can heal...

Sarah will probably never see this but you care more about those kids well being than their own parents. Don't feel bad for what happened they are the ones to blame, the ones that were in control of their own kids lives and the ones that normalized this for you.

This recent EdTed goes over what I was trying to convey in my cult post. I'll probably refer back to this to help explain the onision/joy cult mentality from time to time cause it explains many aspects really well. I also have another really long Onision rant coming together but have to take a break from it tonight, so hopefully tomorrow I'll get it done.

I want to preface this rant with a little about me, to see where I’m coming from as a person with some knowledge on this subject. I’m a stage entertainer of 7+ years of my adult life, mainly burlesque. I’ve been on “tours”, I’ve traveled a bit, I’ve took classes with world wide known burlesque dancers/entertainers. When you do this line of work it is you working for yourself. You have to put effort into making those bookings and making that money. A common problem in this is the “Exposure” line. In this line we have a saying “exposure doesn’t pay my bills”. If you are only getting payed by exposure then it should be a no go. If they can’t pay you for your time ths are not worth it, the “exposure” won’t be worth while, cause if it was they could pay you enough for your time. People now a days think live entertainment is cheap, there’s been many a rant from the burlesque community about someone wanting to book 1 burlesque dancer 1 act for a hour for $150, for this or that, mainly wedding things. Not knowing 1 act from 1 girl for 8 mins is worth at least $75 in some areas, but as much as $300 in others; and that yes travel and accommodations if needed are required. Why so much? Well think about it, you can only strip for so long (there are only so many layers you can do), but in that time you have you choreograph. For this you will spend money on studio time ($30-$150 per class/time × at least 3). Now costume, if you want to make money you can’t be off the rack. Diy is your best bet, I for one make costumes as a living as well. An average costume for me, made by me is going to run $300-1500. Again this is one act, this is my money. So off the bat one act I’m in the hole no less then $1000 (from this I divided how many times I think I can do this act, before it makes me profit), add on make up and hair supplies, plus travel expenses/food it’s pricey. Exposure will never pay me back that, to be professional you can’t do that. Even if you are a amateur in a small town, calculate what everything cost and set a base pay. You time is worth something. This is what is destroying the live arts. This counts for any art though, and greg does this a lot. He sees him self as almighty with “1 billion views” (not really impressive when you think this is after being on tv years ago, been on youtube 10+ years, and spread out over 6 channels, that daily put out shit) that just giving you time in his presence is worth something, granted he pays for you to be there (though he’ll hold it over your head when he hates you) but he’s making thousands off you; what’s it to him. The drama that comes after is just more money in his pocket. Which brings me to charity, and my other big irk with greg. Again being in entertainment as a queer woman, sex worker, abuse victim, etc. charity has always been something close to my heart. Many of my first small groups shows were put on to benefit many different local groups from lbgtq to foster childern. While I am just a small part in the charities I help out with now we make around $5k-10k per show for the charity (while still paying everyone no less than $100 per 5 min act or service, depending on budget/act this could be higher). In the past few years we have done no less then 10 charity shows for a local abuse shelter (that thanks in part to my group can stay afloat), but also charity events for a trans friends top surgery, amoung other local queer rights issues. At everyone of these shows someone goes around to the cast and unless there’s some urgent need of money, everyone hives a chunk that they made. At most shows I make between $100-$150 + tips and I generally give half of it, because these causes are also dear to me and I want them to make as much money as possible. Here’s where it all ties in, I think marknacter recently talked about this, but it’s what gets my goat; greg hardly even ever gives to anything he “supports”. He say’s he gives it “exposure” but exposure means shit when most of your audience can’t pay either. Most of Gregs audience is teens with little money. This can be seen recently with laineys friend that had the go fund me ( cause he bleeds on to them because of abuse/control of the purse). They were giving “exposure” to their friends gofund me (to their big audience) at a time their husband was to give them $1000. True they did get one big donation from a onion fan, I don’t doubt there are a couple that can spend money; but that was it. One donation of $500. Lainey themselves only gave $50. Apparently this dear friend was on life support and also has a young child, and lainey could only bother to gove $50 when they were getting $1000, some friend. That exposure has done them well. Weeks later and it’s at if only 2k. Again I’m not saying lainey or greg has to do anything, but if you’re going to use “ muh gender” as an excuse to drag someone do something to help the community. Actually give back. Make a vid where everything goes to something/one. I think this is where I will end this rant for now, but I would like to add just some advice from an older “artist” to the younger ones out there, people like Greg will use you to turn profit, you’re time is worth something, even if you’re a noob. Always learn and grow in which ever path you take, I’ve been sewing since I was 4 and making corsets since my early teens, going into my 30s I still watch sewing tutorials and take classes. I want to do another rant on “friendship manipulation” soon cause greg does this a lot with his friends too, that will better explain this rant.

To start I feel lainey is soooo close to breaking free, they are coming to the realization of the manipulation and abuse with each fight. While yes she has done her own share of crappy things let's not forget she's been manipulated since at least 16 by this man. Him telling her what's right and wrong, pushing her to do things she will most likely will feel terrible remorse for later. She's in deep pain, even when you know the person you love is horrible and manipulative you still love them (or the old though of them). Also with her being pregnant and hormones a mess it's surely harder then normal. I encourage everyone to keep this in mind; don't bug her, don't ask her for a tell all, don't hate on her too much. Do post encouraging thing though, and show your support for getting out of this. Remember how being in this kinda relationship makes you "crazy" as seen in the past with his past lovers. From the break up vid it is clear he's already claiming lainey is the crazy one, that she kept bringing her back, that its all her fault; but let's go back. I find it weird that billie came into the scene outta no where pretty much, which I have theories on but that's another rant. Before billie came in lainey came out as bi. Greg encouraged lainey to get a girlfriend though at that time she wrote on twitter she was happy with just greg. Then (with his encouragement) decided yeah it's ok if I explore my sexuality; WHICH IS TOTALLY NORMAL FOR HER AGE. She went from her families house (who's not too keen on the bi thing) to gregs house, lot's of girls experiment at her age. She then says ok I'll get a gf, but greg can't have a gf only a bf. Greg is making "I'm bisexual" vids and lusting after andy at this point so I don't doubt he used this as his toe in to what he really wanted, he will later say he tried a butt toy and didn't like it so he's not bi, but he knew that. So billie comes around (I have a theory on that for another rant), lainey get's mad that she seems to be there for Greg and not her, that's a fair and honest worry. I've brought this up before and will again, he talked her into taking billie back, so much so he gave billie money (he was talking to her too then) to buy her gifts. That's big manipulation, shows he was working hard to bring this girl back into his life (a girl he will choose over his wife next time she's there. He's also making vids saying how great his relationship is now that it's 3 "how beautiful" it is. It works lainey brings her back. This time they get close to a threesome, I have no doubt greg was going to be fantasizing fucking only billie while it was really his wife, he was still not allowed to touch billie by laineys twitter; and why should she let them they were already breaking her trust. She can tell that he only wants billie and get's mad. She leaves becausr she feels they are there for each other so what do they do? Naked massage and cuddling of course! Very disrespectful of the boundaries, breaking a lot of trust to the one you're married to; the mother of your child and the one with most emotional history with. She then wants a divorce and he says yes, even signs away his parental rights. But lainey does something smart, she goes to twitter. Voicing her views and pain. He knows his past will he dug up, her dad is a lawyer, and he has to be the victim; so right nows not best time for a divorce. The text he shows at the end of the betrayed vid shows him plotting with billie that "can she handle the backlash to come" knowing the shitstorm to come. He kept her on the back burner. Lainey now is seeing the manipulation, he talked her back because he needed to get things in order. He's also pushing for her to forgive billie, still making vids about how "beautiful" it is and so on; now having to also fight the cuck comments that he really hates. He really hates it, it shows he's not getting what he wants cause of laineys rules and that it's true. So while he's trying to get her to forgive he's probably bitching about being called cuck, he's bringing up that he has fallen in love with billie, that this is how it has to be. He also knows she will come back to him now and he has power. She's admitting her codependency. It's billie comes back or it's nothing. I think sarah was a "present" cause lainey really does like her, probably wants to be with her; but she's totally gay so greg has no chance and greg prob knows he can't touch her (remember he's encouraging sarah too, and plays into laineys views). It's clear by this point billies to stay, and she's not their for her. The "haters" were right. She has seen what happened to his ex's too. She's probably very scared of the backlash too. From the twitter convos he also talked to her about not emotionally tweeting. He really doesn't want her blabbing cause he needs to be the victim; but she did. Now people know the truth that he wanted to leave her, that he manipulated her, that it was all a lie. That's why this break up vid was made, she ruined his plan to break it off in a way he was a victim so now he has to go to plan B, make her seem crazy, make it seem like he's trying to reason and work through it. When he says "I'm 90% sure we will get back together" it's not because he's trying to work through it, it's because he needs to make himself the victim. She has said she will follow the same path and take him back cause she needs him and she is 8 months pregnant. He's going to tell her again not to tweet anything, he's going to tell her billies here for good cause he loves her, billie knows this. He's plotting her exit by making her "crazy" so she's on borrowed time. Good news for her when she leaves she has family and friends (as greg pointed out, hint hint), with the anti o's screen capping and documenting pretty much everything she has a good chance of the prenuptial getting thrown out, It does show manipulation, and she will get child support. I have tons more to say but I'm going to end this one here, because tl;dr. Once again don't bug the girl, she's in a very bad place and pregnant, but encourage her that it will be ok, she is strong, she can get out, and she will be loved. A lot of people (like me) in the anti o community have been in similar situations and we know what its like. You and your emotions are vaild.

But um Onision you need to get control of your fans. They are actually sending death and rape threats which is an actual crime you can get a felony just for encouraging it. You say you’re against bullying well then prove it man up and tell your fans to stop with the bullshit. Tell them. In Jenna Marbles words to get a pair of scissors and cut it the fuck out. But knowing you and knowing the fact you encourage shit like this my words will fall on deaf ear. You are not a man you’re not even a boy you have to be human first you don’t qualify. Yes I just quoted Morgan Freeman. And Shelby if you do by some cosmic chance read this I support you stay strong and know that you don’t deserve any of this shit and that you are better than them.