#onemon

#Ronopolysays.... #BeEncouraged #onemon #jesussaves #onemancansavetheworld #detroitvseverybody #bigsean (at Philadelphia, Pennsylvania)

I have to let everyone know I've fallen in love. He's cute. Handsome. Smart. Always listens to me. Laughs when I'm being silly. And is super chunky and adorable and poops on himself. I'm talking about my son. Let me explain (to those that will actually read it) before you guys drop your jaws. Jack and I were forced by outside forces to rely on each other for everything. No longer were we able to call on that third crutch when we were sick of each other or needed a break. We had to learn to adapt to one another and feed off of each other. And you know what? It's been great. It's great to wake up every morning and smile at the person right next to you. The way he climbs all over me as if to tell me, "hey mom! I love you and I'm so happy you're here." The way I can tell which cry is which now. How seeing him learn how to be outside by himself and me trusting him to go frolick on his own won't kill me. The way I tell him every time I'm doing something, "I love you," just so he here's it from me as much as he can. Our nighttime prayers and talks about what we've done throughout the day. Every time he goes to school it's an adventure and seeing him progress in his therapy helps me realize why I was so eager to be a mom in the first place. He grew and formed inside me for months and he was mine when I pushed him out and he's still mine now. And I'll always be here for him. Through the good, the bad, the messy, the confusing, I'll always be here for him. And he'll always know that his mom loved him. And even though I have my own stuff to figure out, that doesn't stop me from loving you. I'm so in love with you, Jack. And I have nothing but love to give to you and your future sibling. I'm sorry that things aren't perfect and you don't get the "fairy-tale" life I always imagined you and your sibling to have. But that doesn't mean the love has to stop. I'll always be here (and I know there were times I felt it was better if I wasn't) but I promise you I'll always be here. I'll answer every question and I'll be 100% honest to you about everything. You'll see that your mom is only human and I hope one day, like my dad and mom have shown me, that even if I am only human, that doesn't mean that I'm not capable of doing extraordinary things. And they're all for you. ❤️❤️❤️ I love you, my son. I'm very lucky to be your mom.