#omnithoughts

I wish I could draw better than I do. I'm not saying I can't draw because I can draw well enough if I sit down and have actually thought something through, but I can't just like "LOLOLOL DRAWINGS"

I don't understand how someone can physically identify as someone else character. I'm talking like (And I'm gonna use Trollkin as an example, but they're not the only ones) someone makes a species, okay you want to make an OC and identify as that OC, fan-fucking-tastic. Have fun with that shit. But like, if you identify as Sollux or Karkat or Nepeta, and I don't just mean like "Oh yeah he/she/whatever has the same personality as me, I can totally identify as them, cause that's fine, I mean like "I AM LITERALLY THAT CHARACTER. THAT CHARACTER IS ME." That doesn't make sense to me. I mean peoples OC's are special, especially when it comes to art and art theft. I don't know where I was going with this.

Just some Omnifeels. So basically I was scrolling through my dash and I happened upon a picture. It was a gif actually. I wouldn't say it upset me, I wouldn't say it made me mad, and I wouldn't say it scared me, but it certainly made me uncomfortable. Like in the way Trypophobia does. The gif itself was something rather simple. It was a girl, missing an arm, lying in a pool of obviously her own blood. It wasn't so much the gore, it was the look of utter fear and sadness on her face. Now I'm not one to believe that girls are defenseless, my girlfriend is evidence of this, I trust her to handle stuff herself (Though I'm still sort of an overprotective annoyance. I care. ;n;) And really it's that caring that set me off. I just care so muuuuuuch. Like seriously. Too much caring is going on. I hate to see a girl in such a defenseless position. This is part of the reason I feel horrible though, because I care and in caring I feel like I'm being sexist "Girls can't handle things themselves" But I don't think that??? It just actually comes off that way (Which is really the way it matters) lkjhgfdsa I'm just that person. I'm all for girls standing up for themselves, and I'd rather it be that way, but I just want to help ALL the females. I want to help all the people really. I just like helping people. But when I do I feel like my help either makes it worse or was so painfully obvious that I end up feeling dumb when the person states that they already knew that. Or if I do help someone then I just feel like a douchebag because I only really did it to make myself feel better about myself. "Yes I'm a good person." I'm just a selfish douche. I'm not even sure what I'm talking about at this point. I want to help people, but fuck, I just feel selfish if I do.

Why am I so serious