#oktova

Beethoven: I'M an adult.

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh FUCK.

OHHHhhhh fuck. oh fuck. oh FUCK.oh fuck. he could feel as many variations of that go through his head as there were parts to the well-tempered clavier--how many were there again? 38? 39?--not relevant. BACH WAS HERE. BACH WAS HERE FOR…whatever. something really upsetting. something that had really upset him, because he looked kinda mad. something that would probably mean kyogo’s blood on the walls--or worse, getting yelled at kanae-style about why he never came hooooooome. (at least that one time he was in the hospital, she actually acted concerned about him and not his debts.)

he’d had the feeling he would piss him off, just like he pissed off his current daughter. only now did he regret giving bach those Washboard Abs™--he had the kind of bod that kyogo would gladly bang, which meant the kind of bod that could shove him against a wall and make him beg. 

for a moment he gave bach the look of a man to whom fate had caught up fast. you know, that look. that look when his eyes get wide and his mouth falls open just wide enough for the oh fucks to be silently exhaled with the breath. it really didn’t suit him, a man who never gave a shit. he sensed this. and so his face froze back into its assholishly nonchalant façade, but surely a GOD would see that flash of shock, the confession of sin by the body, not the mind.

After he does his little monologue and Kanae says he can tell he’s in agony, he FREAKING TURNS AWAY FROM HER. LIKE OH SHIT HE WASN’T PREPARED FOR THAT SO HE JUST SORTA SHUTS DOWN UNTIL SHE STARTS TALKING ABOUT HIM ENJOYING MUSIC AGAIN. THEN HE HAS TROUBLE KEEPING EYE CONTACT SO HE GLANCES TO THE SIDE.

my opinion on;

character in general: bach is probably the softest antagonist i’ve ever met like. he’s terrifyingly powerful but he’s just so grand and confident about it that he doesn’t need to be fierce in order to be intimidating. honestly he’s the person i would want to be…sort of…i’d be a lot less introverted seeming and i def go off a LOT more than he is but i just love people who express their anger quietly. how they play them: PERFECT. BRILLIANT. 50000000% GOLD. you pointed out things about bach that i never would have noticed and you have honestly permanently altered my view on bach and arkhe and in fact the entire series. you are one of the few people i can say who has done that with their portrayal. it’s beautiful.the mun: A LITERAL GENIUS. knight is a literal fucking genius and so are all of her friends and whoops i just called myself a genius bUT U GET WHAT I MEAN. you are 6eva amazing and one of the smartest and strongest people i know and tbh i really want to meet you in real life YOU ARE LITERALLY ONE OF MY HEROES AND I’M SO BLESSED TO BE RPING WITH YOU. <3

do i;

follow them: yes.rp with them: yes.want to rp with them: forever and always.ship their character with mine: I HAVE LIKE 5 DIFFERENT NAMES FOR THE SHIP WHADDAYA THINK.

what is my;

The world I seek is one that is free of suffering. 

oh, don’t we all.

he couldn’t lie to himself. he was tempted. he was adam in eden, hand shaking two inches away from the fruit of the Tree of Life. the fruit of bach’s idealism, of his hundreds of years of suffering--ludwig could have done the same. or worse, in a sense, despite being less powerful. bach was careful not to kill, after all. if ludwig was in charge, someone would have ended up dead.

A world where everything is rooted in music … Through  music, people speak, laugh and live. Music becomes humanity itself.

and that is where you are wrong, thought he--music was already humanity, humanity and the service of it. art was to humans as son and holy spirit were to God--forever a part of us, forever in servitude…they were apart for a reason, yet always so close. no, he had no use for a world in which music ceases to be something special…

You wish to stay in an imperfect world?

no. no, he did not. but how could one call a world perfect, if it were a world where even the grandest music had neither reason nor ceremony…

We would have understanding with everyone.

ah, yes, understanding. the only thing ludwig could ever stand to gain from that nonsense.

nonsense. nonsense indeed. even now, four months after the oktova event, as he approached the Father (of Music), he could feel his mind roaring nonsense, nonsense, nonsense--and if the topic came up, that’s exactly what he’d say. but that wasn’t what he was here for. he was here for the other nonsense that had dogged him ever since his escape from the. blatant horseshit that kyogo had fed him a long time ago. 

that thing is a monster, he’d said. that thing all but wants you as its slave.

and maybe both of those were true in a way, but who was kyogo to judge?

ludwig loudly cleared his throat (what did he ever do that wasn’t loud?) and began to speak.

        ❝bach, a word.❞ 

who knew how bach would react to the topic of kyogo being broached so indelicately, but who cared.