#okayyyy...

what i don't think a lot of my friends understand is, i am not just sad. i am not in a phase or cycle. i have major depressive disorder. i am always sad, i am always tired, what determines how well i seem is my ability to fucking hide it. and if i don't rest and recharge i cannot hide it. i feel weak and unstable. and then if you throw in my mood swings and borderline it is literally fucking hell. i'm in pain all the time. i sabotage, i overthink, i make myself physically sick with worry. i love my friends. i love them with my whole heart, but i don't want to live for anyone. i want this all to go away. i want to be okay. i say this all the time but: i hate it here. i truly do. and yet, i'm living for the crumbs of joy. but god, does it have to be like this. i think i just need sleep and a good cry.

alrighty aomine..you can come talk to me now I’m not mad at you anymore !!!!!!!!!!!!

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