#okay... bye

no one seems as interesting or attractive as they used to now that you're around and it's mad annoying tbh

I hate when everyone assumes what I'm going to be doing. They think they know, but they don't. It's made it really hard for me to try to be part of the team, and its making it really hard for me to even want to be part of the team. I'm missing out on a lot and being left out of almost EVERYTHING! I've been doing this for 2 years and this would make my 3rd year, what makes them think I'm not going to be in it?? Even though I've been coming to all the meets, I'm not aloud to even ride the bus with the team, or be on deck to help cheer on the team. It makes it hard for me to even want to put effort into trying to be part of the team. I feel like I'm bothering them and I don't even want to be apart of this anymore. It's my senior year and I missing out on something I love to do, just because everyone assumes I'm not going to do it, even though I've said numerous times that I want to. It just really sucks, and I don't know what to do. I wanna say something to the coaches, but I don't wanna feel like I'm bothering them. I'm sure Noone really even read this, or if they did they stop half way through. So I guess if you're still reading this by the end, I'd really appreciate some advice on what I should do, because I really don't know at this point.

Says the person who just bought BB's fan light...

I'm tired of trying. Honestly, what's the point if I'm just going to be let down all the time? Everyone seems different; they really do... No, they are different. It just always ends the same. Everyone's fine but me; No one else seems to get hurt. I really don't understand why nothing ever works out for me. Not once has anything gone my way, and I really don't get it. Is it just me? Is it because I'm a fucking loser? Is it because my personality is just too much to handle? Please, tell me! I really don't get it. Why can't I, just once, be happy and content with everything that's going on in my life? I've been let down every single time I put myself out there. I'm sick and tired of being hurt all the time. There's no point in trying because my life sucks and no one cares.