#ok.lyrics

after 2am i start to think about the line in needle and grenade “i keep on missing” and jay’s constant theme in his lyrics of his aims and shortcomings with success. his struggles of knowing that he is good at what his does (music, piano, scoring, the marriage of music to film) but is just unable to meet the mark in his own head and then “point of the lesson is nothing’s impressing me“ in that even work he was doing that was going somewhere, specifically in the 2010-2013 years, is just stuff generally uninspiring to him. its not scratching that itch he has. the chorus is so fucking interesting because the person he’s talking about is able to calm him down yet he’s also saying they have an explosive dynamic and relationship. they go hand in hand and pulled apart into a fiery end. “people take notice, im tired, unfocused” and i immediately think of matt saying in the dirties commentary something along the lines that you should worry when the funny friend stops being funny and thats why we were all worried about jay a few years back. okay…… “i need some attention, cause mine is atrocious” is an open admission that he struggles to find motivation without the other person around. and then getting into the key choice of the word “prowess” and that being a keyword ability in magic the gathering…..alrighttt “you turn me into stone”... so, “your eyes” ground me (you have something = your attention you give me, that calms me down) and my world is overthrown. it’s a revelation. “i’m together again” a reunion. sure. and it’s not a “we’re together again” but an “I am”, having this person back in jay’s life makes HIM feel like he’s whole again. tying back to the first thought it’s likely that this person also is providing for jay a deep sense of purpose when it comes to his hopelessness of his career, ability to score to film, etc.