#ofthisfiction

I don’t drink coffee, but it’s one of my favorite scents. It reminds me of the kitchen, childhood, and really feeling loved. 

Also, Renee--you know how much I love Renee, right?--smells of coffee, cotton, salt, and grass stains. (Does salt have a scent? Maybe I mean the seaside.)

So, here it is: you’re all lovely people. I think you’re all super attractive, funny, and cool. Sometimes throughout my day I think of you and get a little bit excited just because you’re out there, in the world, existing. And if we’re friends? Whoohee, I’m ecstatic about that. Like, I literally get giddy from time to time because I’m like OH MAN OH MAN I HAVE THIS FRIEND AND THEY ARE A COOL FRIEND AND IT’S JUST AWESOME I HOPE EVERYBODY ON THE PLANET HAS FRIENDS AND IF THEY DON’T THEY SHOULD COME BE FRIENDS WITH ME BECAUSE FRIENDS, MAN, FRIENDS. 

OMG!!!!! I had forgotten about that. What on earth did I write in there?

UM I CANNOT tell you those are PRIVATE letters from my BEST FRIEND/WIFEY. But I will say you included words such as: "who" "or" "how" "would" "I've" "that" "think" and "illustrate." 

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You’re fantastic at friendshipping!!

THE PANTS LOOK GREAT!

Yeah! I love them! Your mom is fantastic. :)

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You’re so beautiful, Kat! That bright blue and colour flecks are fantastic too. But not as much as your face. I miss you!

And now I'm sitting here, like, desperate for some physical affection. 

I mean, not "desperate" but  I really wish Renee were here. Renee is all hugs and handholds and I could use some hugs and handholds. Also, it's just really nice to have people who see the good in you. Especially if you, like me, are slightly more "bitchy" than you are "kind" and therefore have a hard time seeing the good in yourself. Especially when the person who see the good in you is pretty much the best person in the world.

My 99qs thing is about at its end, and if that disappoints you… Well… You can follow my lovely friends asmanynamesastherearewinds and glitterpearl who are both doing them. Plus they’re just beautiful, wonderful, smart, funny people and it will improve your life to be following them. So get to gettin, kay?

Thanks to my other lovely friend henleyatlas I’ve been binge-watching My Mad Fat Diary and very few things make me this happy. She’s super quality so you should go follow her, as well.

I’m not putting links to their tumblrs because I totally know how to do that but I can’t really remember and i usually mess it up so why even bother, you know?

Don’t ever read someone’s diary and then get pissed at them about what they wrote. That’s their diary, man. What right do you have to read it? None. They didn’t talk behind your back, they didn’t do anything to you. Even if they wrote really shitty things about you, so what? They deserve a place to vent. And don’t ever read peoples’ diaries, that’s shitty, man.

There is a girl in my Principles of Scenework class and man I just want to be her friend so badly. She’s like adorable and friendly and talented and SO FREAKING COOL. Yesterday, her hair was up in these super neat braid-y things and I tried to copy it today but messed up because I am just never going to be as cool as her. It’s hard to make friends, you guys.

I keep rapidly switching from “I’m happy because I’ve cut out unhealthy friendships” to “I’m super fucking lonely” and “I’m probably never going to have love/romance/whatever and that’s fine because I don’t really like being touched and I don’t really trust people” to “I just want to live in a Rainbow Rowell love story” to “I’m super fucking lonely.”

I get so embarrassed when people talk about their feelings on TV shows. I turned into a tent the other day.

I got pretty upset the other day, and talked to my friend Meghan (eatyourlesbians) and it was really helpful, I think. It was nice because I haven’t really had anyone to talk to since Renee (ofthisfiction) is back in Australia and Alli (justcallmewillow) went to France.

I hung out with someone on Sunday and I’m going to hang out with people again next Sunday and that’s nice because I really am quite lonely. 

I have American Frontiers today. I’m really excited ‘cause it’s probably my favorite class and my professor is SO COOL she wears the coolest clothes and taught us that Battlestar Galactica is modeled off of the Morman beliefs and that the phrase, “Don’t drink the koolade!” means that the KOOLADE IS POISONED.