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From Monstrous Headcanons | Accepting
∇ - TOMBSTONE - who they are versus who they appear to be
Himchan likes to think that he puts up a strong front. He wants to seem like a successful, masculine individual. He at least hopes that he gives off an accomplished air. He likes to seem like he knows what he is doing. People tend to think he is smart because he is a medical student, and he wants it to stay that way. Inside, though, Himchan is weak and really scared of losing control. His werewolf nature is too unpredictable, and he worries if it is too much for him to handle. He is really not confident that he is strong enough to handle being a surgeon and a werewolf all at the same time. The compulsion to consume the flesh of patients is something he is dreading to even think about. When the time comes, he does not know how he will react. Spilled blood already makes him begin to salivate, albeit not to an extreme degree. Surgery is a whole different breed, though. He will not be able to truly tell until the time comes, but he is not sure if he wants to risk it. Either way, Himchan feels like he is losing something very important to him. It is not fair.
