#o.h.

It’s okay to hurt over him. It’s okay to miss him sometimes, so long as you remember that he was your past and isn’t your future. Remember the broken glass and the fiery words that left scars on your heart, Remember the constant fear, and how it felt to shrink inside yourself. Remember the painful nights, and the days where you thought you wouldn’t make it through. Remember how it felt to lose yourself to breath life into his bones. Be thankful for the good times, the love, the genuine happiness, But, babygirl, don’t forget that he turned you into a shell of yourself. Don’t forget that he wiped away your beautiful personality so that he could shine, Please, don’t forget that he tied you down so that he could be free. It’s okay to hurt over him, but remember how liberating it is to let him go. Don’t forget how it feels to wake up without him crawling through your mind. Bask in the freedom that losing him gave you. Revel in your recovery; the light in your eyes has returned, the life in your laughter is back. With him, you were skin and bones, hollow, just a wandering soul. Without him? You’re glowing. You’re free. You’re finding yourself, and you’re happy.

[BEFORE THE END] I could walk to the ends of the earth
for you, and I would never tire.
The flame that you’ve ignited in my heart
never dims or flickers, and the butterflies that you’ve 
left dancing in my belly
are a constant reminder that you’re always with me. [AFTER] Our love moved mountains and parted oceans. It set a fire in my heart that will never go out, that no one else can or will ever compare to. We don’t talk anymore and this is all I have in me. Every bed I sleep in feels empty without you in it. When I dream of you, I awake with tears running down my face because I can only see you in my dreams. I don’t know how we ended up so lost, so far from the future that we planned with each other. It’s another sleepless night and the thought of you is on my mind. There’s so many things I want to tell you, because aside from it all you were my best friend: My best friend that I am forever, hopelessly in love with. My best friend that I finally lost a chance with, because I couldn’t put down the drugs. My best friend and the beautiful ultrasound of what could have been that I carry with me everywhere I go. My best friend, the love of my life, and the one who holds my heart. I would still walk to the ends of the earth for you.

@O.H.