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I love people QAQ 

I just have low impulse control (and kinda slightly adopted a jaded-aunt persona) but I’m trying to work on that... 

As you might have heard from my main blog or guessed on your own during these many months of inactivity, this blog is closed. I may reblog fanworks from time to time (if that’s okay), but for all other intents and purposes, this is just an archive from now on.

I want to, first of all, apologize to anyone I’ve hurt, upset, or offended with this blog or its actions or its themes. He was never supposed to be an easy character to swallow, but I always tried to treat everything with the utmost respect and tact. If I failed or fell short in that in any way, I am deeply sorry. 

I learned a whole lot through running this blog and the knowledge and experience I hold now is invaluable.

To the people who ever felt left out, ignored, or abandoned: I am very sorry. I didn’t get to answer all the asks I had, RP with everyone I wanted, and i didn’t get to do all the ideas I had with the people I did RP with, but I can no longer healthily run this blog.

It was always hard getting him to interact with new people and I tried my best to work past that, but I know there are many people who felt like I was purposefully ignoring them. It was never personal, I assure you, and I always tried my best to work past his and my own social failings. I am very sorry if you ever felt turned aside because of this.

I was at my worst with my own mental health during most of the time I was running this blog. At first, he was a good way to let it out, to turn all my struggles and lows into something productive and hopefully helpful to me or someone else, but at some point this blog just started dragging me down with it and I have to let go.

Thank you to everyone who supported this blog. From being a fellow mod/RP-partner, sending asks, making fanworks, liking his posts, or simply just reading them. All of your support means a lot and this blog would not be anywhere near where it was if not for you guys. I never expected a character I made as a joke to end up having this much presence and impact on not just my life, but others but I’m proud.

With all the good times and bad, I’ve made some meaningful connections and learned a lot about myself and other people. Though I have many regrets, I honestly wouldn’t trade away this experience. Because while it’s been very hard, it’s also taught me a lot as a person and I still get messages about how Spook has helped other people cope and even live. And being a positive inspiration and healthy support for other people is always my ultimate goal.

Again, thank you all so much for being here and experiencing this with me, whether you’ve been here from the start or followed just earlier this year, or go back and read the archives for the first time from now on. I appreciate it all.

Spook, himself, isn’t gone just this blog and his existence in this universe as a whole. I will continue to do stuff with him and have already done so. My art blog will continue to include Spook and, for at least a little while, I will continue to update his sideblog and twitter. 

(All of this goes for Andrew too.)