#nysdiary

A random afternoon today, i want to write about one little thing that actually i don’t know what it is (hehe.. so random right?)

These couple days i had something in my mind that kept my head ‘working’. And for some reason, i don’t really understand what was running in my head

in bahasa we call it galau

oh no, am i galau?

I was asking in my deepest heart, am i able to accept something that i dont really like?

Am i ready to be treated not the way i like, but the way other people like?

Am i really able to do what i’ve been said to other people that i would be ok with that and just dont mind myself.

Oh God, those questions kept spinning around my head and no answer at all

I was like, are you sure you can accept those all? sincerely?

and for a person like me, i’m not someone who will drown myself into that thoughts intensively until i got the answer. I still can do many things happily, but for some quiet time, those things bothered me a lot. It could change my mood instantly. That’s why i tried to write it down here. At least i got some space to ‘curcol’

Well, i haven’t got the answers of every little questions that have been in my mind. I haven’t got my state of mind that make myself assured.

But yesterday, in the top of ‘kegalauan’, i got some words from God unexpectedly.

He said to me not to worry and just surrender all to Him. He will do what i couldn’t do. He will reach what i couldn’t reach. He will make all things just right in His best time.

I have a SUPER GREAT DAD, right? so what to worry about then?

and He gave me a little bonus

Just give it all to Him. That’s all i can do.