#nurturingcas

for the ask game, how about 3 & 16?

hi hi Jessie!!

3. coolest t-shirt

It's not a t-shirt but I have a Stouffers mac and cheese sweatshirt that I'm lowkey obsessed with because of how ridiculous it is (pics under the cut!)

16. last vacation

I went to Saint Lucia last year with my boyfriend, cousins, aunt and uncle! It was a blast (that was my second time there!)

Ask me stuff from this list!

the way i literally had your blog pulled up about to message you something along the lines of "thanks for the OG van kiss brain rot at 7am" BUT HERE YOU ARE comin' at me with EVEN MORE FEELS this fine saturday morning!!

mickey is the bravest boy in the world. he's so courageous in so many ways but in this moment? their first kiss? HIS first kiss?? BEYOND brave 🥺 that's my personal headcanon, that this was his first kiss with anyone. and it makes me fucking sob bc what better first kiss to have than one with someone you're head over fucking heels for?? even if it ends in chaos?? i don't think he ever trusted anyone the way he trusts ian, the way he feels so safe with him in a way that's new and unfamiliar and terrifying and invigorating. it's unlikely, in my mind, that he would ever trust anyone else with anything so intimate and personal. maybe not as he aged, but definitely in this moment.

i think he planned it in the same way someone "plans" for a fight. you know you'll be there, you know they'll be there, and you know what's about to go down but you have no way of knowing exactly what's going to happen. because maybe they'll surprise you. or even better, maybe you'll surprise yourself. and i think that's what he did! surprised himself! because i know he woke up that morning realizing he may have a chance to prove ian wrong - that he isn't afraid to kiss him - and decided to take it if the opportunity presented itself. i don't think he knew the logistics of it. i think he just knew that it was something he needed to do, something he wanted to do, and the next time he saw a chance, he'd take it. and he saw his chance!! and he took it!! and it was beautiful and wonderful and life-changing and earth-tilting and reality-shifting and all the incredible things 😭

and ian's little face? his soft little smile? the way his brain is fully offline in that moment just sparking back to life and realizing that yeah, YEAH, that just fucking happened?!? can you IMAGINE the butterflies both of them felt? i'm imagining it and getting butterflies myself in that nostalgic puppy love kind of way 🥹

These are great questions, excellent choices!

5. what color are your eyes?

My eyes are green! This pantone swatch is pretty close

40. did you have any snacks today?

As far as feral things you may have missed, you should check out The Switch-Up by @whatthebodygraspsnot which I will be recommending to everyone forever because it broke me.

Are you reading Change Like Shifting Shadows by @thisdivorce? Ya gotta read the recent update!

M8TE by @gallawitchxx continues to be indescribably feral and I for one am incredibly here for it.

Also, sorry bout the self-rec but you might dig this fic I wrote that features gorgeous spicy art by @heymrspatel

This isn't a comprehensive list, but I'm sure others will have recs too! 🔥🖤

jess-ayyy! 🥰

nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on? my place looks like a punk squatting in an ikea showroom—it’s full of the hemnes collection, posters in frames (i’m a real adult sometimes), and plants

Jessie!! Flowers and plants for you 🌸🌼💐🌹🪴🌱

48-Can you curl your tongue?: I used to be able to when I was a kid but lost that skill. I’m choosing to blame it on my tongue getting too big..like you can see where it presses against my teeth😛

80-How many piercings do you have?: Just plain ear piercings. I let a friend pierce my cartilage the second to last day of my senior year and regretted it immediately. Then got my tragus done which got horribly infected. Both of those closed up.

100-Color of your room?: A bluish gray with a deep purple accent wall 💜

this list isn't definitive because i love all of my stuff so i'm just gonna do the top 5 that come to mind 🙈

i have this panda build-a-bear and literally built her a closet for her clothes when i was little. it was especially fun because there was like online build-a-bear website where you would have a town and a house and play games with your bear so it was fully immersive and everything.

okay i have no idea where this next one is, but it was just a tiny (like 2 cm maybe) flat wooden unicorn that was white/light pink with sparkles. no face, just vibes. i was just obsessed with it's energy.

i also had a rock collection of those smooth, rainbow rocks you'd get at souvenir shops. those were cool.

ohhhh there was this like barbie fairytopia tiny bag. it was pink and plastic and shaped like a flower and it lit up and i used it as a suitcase for my barbies (honestly maybe that's where the unicorn is????)

omg there was also this little horse set. found it! here! but i got it while i was horseback riding in the mountains in colorado and i was obsessed with these horses. they're all so pretty i could cry.

wait one more: there was this little pink house that had room for five kitten stuffed animals and i dressed up as a cat lady for halloween one year and carried it around with me. wait - not my picture but it's THIS

💖, 💻, and 🍰 for the ask game

hi there <3

💖 What do you like most about your own writing? I like my metaphors :)

💻 Do you do research for your fics? What’s the deepest dive you’ve done? I do usually. whenever I write stories that involve pregnancy I research the shit out of that to make sure my timelines are right.

🍰 Name one of your fave comfort fics (doesn’t have to be your all time fave) Can I list a few??

drabbles by @iansfreckles

teenage dirtbag by @thisaintmacys-bitch

risk & reward

we can call it even

like real people do