#nurodivergent!reader

Even on your bad days.

Even when you're in so much pain all you want to do is scream and cry.

Even when you forget important things, or make mistakes.

Even when you keep them up all night with your night terrors, or wake them up to help you with your meds because you can't get it yourself.

Even when you can't get yourself out of bed and sleep for most of the day.

They love you when you talk too loud and when you can't talk at all.

They love you when you infodump about random things they don't have a clue about.

They love you when you're stimming really badly, or screaming uncontrollably, and when you're trashing around from a seizure or meltdown.

They love you, even when you hate yourself. Even when you can't see why they love you, they still do.

You don't have to be perfect for them to love you, you don't have to be good, you don't even have to be okay!

They don't love you only for your good days, they love you for you. And you is messy, you is weak, you is scared, and you is angry, and they love that about you!

You're not their burden.

You're not someone they're forced to babysit.

You're not a headache.

You're their heart.

You're who loves them the most.

You're the best thing that's ever happened to them.

You love them, even if no one else does, you love them. You see the good in them. You see them for what they are, and they aren't perfect.

The same fear that you have, that you're too much or too little for them? They have it too.

They worry they're not enough for you too.

{Neurodivergent Edition}

💥 She can sometimes sense when your meltdowns are about to start. She just gets a feeling that something is off with you.

💥 Sometimes they're clear things like, you suddenly staring into oblivion, your eyes watering, your posture getting smaller, your body shaking.

💥 But other times the signs are more subtle and rely on how much she knows you.

💥 She'll notice how you slowly stop engaging in conversation, the confused look on your face, the slight twitch in your nose, eyes, or lips. She's learned all your tics over time.

💥 She'll lean in close to you and whisper, "Princess? Are you okay?"

💥 If you say, "I'm fine," and give her some poor excuse, she'll sigh but let you continue with what you're doing at least until something really noticeable happens--

💥--in which case Catra will gently guide you out of the room and to your shared bedroom or somewhere quiet.

💥 If you're the type to compulsively apologize whilst having a meltdown, cut that shit out, Catra's not finna be having you feeling bad about something you can't control.

💥 Catra will never complain about stopping to make sure you're well and safe.

💥 If you're the type to yell, or scream, or cry when having a meltdown, she never wants to make you feel bad or try to belittle you,

💥Catra's had her own share of meltdowns and destructive outburts, remember? She understands!

💥 You're not allowed to tell anyone, but Catra is really soft and gentle with you when you're having a meltdown. (And just soft with you in general, but it's not cuz she likes you or anything ;))

💥If you're on the verge of a meltdown because you're overestimated Catra gives this spine chilling death glare to anyone who's even a little too loud for her liking.

💥Catra has heightened hearing so if someone is annoyingly loud to her then she assumes they're being way too loud for you and either they're gonna quiet down or she's going to make their next training session a living nightmare. (Perks of being in love with your force captain)

💥Speaking of perks of being in love with your force captain, Catra always excuses you from any short of training when you're overstimulated or having a meltdown. Is it favoritism? Absolutely! Does she care? Not even a little.

💥Also Catra is fiercely protective over you. It rarely ever happens anymore, because Catra sent the last person who did it to the infirmary, but if anyone ever made fun of you because of your meltdowns? Oh baby, it's on.

💥You know Catra don't play like that, and she has no problem putting assholes who disrespect you back in their place {or in a body cast}

Reader x Catra!

-Catra has BPD

-She sometimes has aggressive episodes where she threatens someone who annoyed/hurt her, and you'll sometimes hear her whispering to other people under her breath, "I could destroy you," "I could hurt you," or you'll hear her growling.

-You will usually put a hand on her shoulder first before gently wrapping her body up in yours and placing light kisses upon her neck. "It's okay kitten, just let them go, they aren't worth it."

-There's apart of you that loves her manic episodes, when she's happy and confident, and with no filter.

-She has this, "I'm the best" attitude about her and you usually just laugh and go, "Couldn't have said it better myself."

-But you know if you're going to adore the highs, you're gonna have to appreciate the lows as well.

-When she has large dark bags under her eyes even after sleeping for half a day. When she's a bit irritable and short, when you find her curled up in the bathroom crying, and when she's self destructive.

-When Catra can't muster up the strength to bathe or shower for her own health, you sometimes go in the bathroom, come back with just a towel on, and sit beside her while caressing her cheek, "Come on, kitten, won't you join me? I'd enjoy myself so much more with you."

-She tries to keep her eyes from wandering but fails and puts her hands over her rose dusted face with a long groan, "I know what you're doing, princess..."

-You laugh and take her hands away from her face to kiss her cheek, "and I know you just can't resist it, can you kitten?"

-She groans again, "but I don't feel like getting up."

-"Hmn," you put your finger on your cheek to pretend your deep in thought, "I think I can help with that, my queen."

-"Wha-"

-"And scoop!!"

-"Y/N!!!"

-"Catra stay still, or Imma drop you!!!"

-Or sometimes you'll go get all your hair stuff (because your author is poc, therefore you deal with black hair now. Lol) sit beside her, and do her hair for her, whilst leaving kisses on her shoulders, neck, and jaw.

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-but don't be mistaken, Catra has no problem taking care of you as well.

-The first time you had a meltdown in front of her, you were afraid she wouldn't know what to do, you'd scare her, or you'd make her uncomfortable, but to your surprise Catra's tough exterior crumbled before you as she remained gentle and calm.

-She speaks in whispers as she realizes your hands pressed firmly against your ears, "Hey, princess, hey can you talk to me?"

-Her heart breaks as you open your mouth, only to realize no words would come out. Your sobs wrecking your body as she quickly scoots closer, "hey, hey princess, dont-dont cry, it's okay, you don't have to talk. Um-?"

-Thinking on her feet, Catra runs around your secretly shared room turning of the lights, and shutting the door. She then grabs her blue blanket and wraps it around you.

-You laugh through your tears making Catra break into a warm smile.

-with the blanket separating her hand from directly touching your face, she caresses your cheek, "Do you want to move to the bed, princess?"

-you silently nod your head, but as you were about to get up, Catra kissed the top of your head, and scooped you up in her arms.

-she pulled the blankets back, and tucked you in.

-If you're the type who hits themselves, especially their head, during meltdowns, Catra gently discourages this-pulling your hand away- and tries to find something for you to mess with.

-I headcannon that Catra's claws are retractable, so sometimes when you're trying to come down from a meltdown she'll let you mess with her claws, gently pressing her palm to retract and reveal her sharp black nails.

-If you like to draw, you and Catra with scribble doodles on each other.

-When it comes to you, Catra's image means nothing to her, and she will gladly trade her reputation for your health and well being.

-You didn't notice it for a long time, but Catra pays very close attention to your sensory needs.

-and if you're really tired after a meltdown Catra has no problem letting you rest your head upon her chest.

-The care and love yourself and Catra harbor shows itself fiercely she one of you us hurting, uncomfortable, or just needing the others company.

-no matter how bad the storms get, no matter how your minds tremble under the weight of the horde, the war, the manipulation, the trauma, and the betrayal, you two remain constant.