#nullefy

"Explaining why collaborating against The Guild is the best solution would just be telling you what you already know.  Will you agree to this?"

His words were hollow.  It sounded scripted to him, and in a way, it was.  Engaging with his enemies in this manner was outside of his realm of comfort.  He was exhausted with being several steps behind.  The Agency responded to times of crisis in rapid-fire movements, but only when chaos was already running its course around them.  Changing tactics for the sake of those around him was necessary.  He needed to work harder.

Oda pulled his shoulders back as he took a single step forward.  "An ambush that focuses on their assets would eliminate the majority of the threats The Guild poses," he pressed.

The majority of his problems outside of The Guild seemed to begin and end with the Boss of the Port Mafia.  Orchestrating this secret meeting between himself and the mafia boss stemmed from concerns Oda had that were entirely outside of their problems with The Guild.  Would Oda admit those intentions out loud?  Of course not.

This could be his only opportunity to understand this enigma.  An enigma that referred to himself as his friend in another life, gave him a nickname despite being an enemy, provided random encouragement towards his writing career, and admitted to having difficulty facing off against an enemy without his assistance.  Nothing in that first exchange made any sense to him.  Oda thought he was better off not knowing what any of it meant.  But as time passed, that initial encounter gradually haunted Oda in ways indescribable.  He despised the tightness in his chest every time he recalled it.

       ABSOLUTELY ANALYTICAL , he was . the shogun knew that look much too well by now . the one that seemed to PROD & JUDGE . from what masaomi could tell , he was no different from a certain someone . the very same someone that filled his very being with remorse , hatred . pure anger bubbles within the gang leader’s blood as he in turn would stare back at the man .  ❛  tch .  ❜   he’d scoff .    ❛  nothin’ i haven’t heard before . so tell me , what makes you think that i should TRUST YOU ?   ❜

    A collar. Clad in black & adorned with claws on the outside & in the inside. It hadn’t been that long since he arrived here — there wasn’t anything wrong with him that could make the other want to put something on him. At least. it’s what he thought. The child couldn’t understand what the reason for it was: his mentor simply had asked him to come to his office with no prior warning as to what would be happening. The only thing the child could see was that the man was holding something behind his back with a knowing smile etched onto his face. Deceptively innocent in every way.

     It was unsettling to be at the center of that stare  — & he had a reason to feel it as well. The slow movements of his mentor as he brought out the item for the child to see completely. Atsushi’s eyes widened & breath caught in his throat: a small whimper escaping at just the way the object looked  — painful. That was going to go around his neck: it was going to pierce his skin & cause him pain; an excruciating amount. With a step back, the only thing the boy could do as a response to the idea was a slow shake of his head  — he didn’t want to wear it at all.

    He didn’t want to be in pain.

    Not again.

    This wasn’t some sort of punishment that was going to stop after a moment of having it on. There was a knowing yell in the back of his mind that this was not just a one time thing. The more that sunk under his skin  — the more afraid & unwilling he was.

❛     even  if  you  really  weren’t  following  me  ------  which  i  still  suspect  you  were  ------  you’ve  been  looking  at  me  strangely  .  i  hope  you  didn’t  think  i  wouldn’t  notice  .     ❜  you  shift  the  position  of  the  doll  in  your  arms  ,  securing  it  and  somewhat  protecting  your  latest  buy  from  the  eyes  of  the  detective  .  dazai  osamu  ;  someone  you  know  by  name  but  not  face  ,  until  now  ,  it  would  seem  .

       ah, but when has dazai’s luck ever been that good? of course chuuya notices the strain, the sudden tension in dazai’s frame as he does his best to act like nothing is wrong. there’s no way chuuya wouldn’t notice it; they were partners for years, after all. they may have spent more time apart than they had together as such, but that isn’t enough to change the fact that chuuya knows dazai, can read him well enough that such a slip, insignificant as it is, isn’t something he misses. 

       he can understand why, too, knows dazai’s traumatized from the loss of one oda sakunosuke, knows that the thought of dazai losing another person he cares about is enough to drive dazai to the edge of hysteria even if he hides it well. it’s part of his defensive mechanisms, so to speak: isolate yourself from others so that their inevitable death or departure cannot hurt you. and while dazai may not have completely opened up to his new coworkers, or even mostly done so, there’s no denying that he has allowed them closer than he likely meant to, whether he wants it or not. they care for him, and he cares for them.

       chuuya knows he is on the list of people that dazai cares about, too. as such, he knows better than to bring up the fact that he will, in fact, die for the sake of protecting the city if it is necessary, and instead offers up something to calm dazai’s nerves.

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                 BOLD all that applies to your muse.                  italicized  -  applicable in some verses

• eyes:   blue | green | brown | hazel | grey | grey-blue | other ( purple-gold ) • hair:   blonde | sandy | brown | black | auburn | ginger | grey / white | multi-color | other • body type:   skinny | slender | slim | built | curvy | athletic | muscular | chubby | overweight • skin:   pale | light | fair | freckled | tan | olive | medium | dark | discoloured • gender:   male | female | trans | cis | agender | demigender | genderfluid | other | doesn’t like labels | don’t have any definite headcanon either way • sexuality: heterosexual | homosexual | bisexual | pansexual | asexual | demisexual | other | unsure | doesn’t like labels • romantic orientation:   homoromantic | heteroromantic | biromantic | panromantic | aromantic | demiromantic | other | unsure | doesn’t like labels

• species:   human | undead | shapeshifter | demon | angel | witch | ghost | incubus / succubus | werewolf | alien | mutant | other

• education:   high school | college | university | master’s degree | PhD | other ( taught at orphanage ) • i’ve been: in love | hurt | ill | mentally abused | bullied | physically abused | tortured | redacted | brainwashed | shot

• positive traits: affectionate | adventurous | athletic | brave | careful | charming | confident | creative | cunning | determined | forgiving | generous | honest | humorous | intelligent | loyal | modest | patient | selfless | polite | down-to-earth | diligent | romantic | moral | fun-loving | attractive | charismatic | calm • negative traits: aggressive | bossy | cynical | envious | shy | fearful | greedy | gullible | jealous | impatient | impulsive | cocky | reckless | insecure | irresponsible | mistrustful | paranoid | possessive | sarcastic | self-conscious | selfish | swears | unstable | clumsy | rebellious | emotional | vengeful | anxious | self-sabotaging | moody | peevish | angry | pessimistic | slacker | thin-skinned | overly dramatic | argumentative

• living situation:   lives alone | lives with parent(s) / guardian | lives with significant other | lives with a friend | drifter | homeless | lives with children | other  • parents/guardian:   mother | father | adoptive | foster | grandmother | grandfather | • sibling(s): sister | brother ( AU w / strcysouls ) | none | other • relationship:   single | crushing | dating | engaged | married | separated | it’s complicated

• i have a(n):   learning disorder | personality disorder | mental disorder | anxiety disorder | sleep disorder | eating disorder | behavioural disorder | substance-related disorder | PTSD | mental disability | physical disability

• things i’ve done before:   had alcohol | smoked | stolen | done drugs | self-harmed | starved ( unwillingly ) | had sex | had a threesome | had a one-night stand | gotten into a fistfight | gone to hospital ( treated by Yosano ) | gone to jail / juvie | used a fake ID | played hooky | gone to a rave | killed someone | had someone try to kill them