He’s laying in bed when he hears his phone ring, there’s a second bottle of soju in his hand and Leon isn’t with him anymore. 

His mind wasn’t already the same when he decided to put the little reptile back in his tank, he didn’t want to cause any accidents by doing anything that could scare the animal and hurt him --- once leopard geckos can drop their tail if they feel threatened. Seojun does not want that to happen, and the chances are big once he’s already had one and a half bottle of alcohol. 

So now he’s in bed alone, his gaze still frozen on the ceiling when his thoughts are interrupted by the little sound of a new message on his phone. He takes a breath deep and rests the bottle next to an already empty one on the nightstand, he reaches for his phone and opens the text message. He blinks, a slight frown forms on his forehead and he wonders, what better time to respond a question like that than when he’s not fully sober? But at this point, he knows Ara herself might not be sober as well considering she’s probably at the valentine’s day party.

He sits up, leans his back on the headboard and takes another deep breath before he starts typing his response, with extra focus once his brain is not working at its fullest after almost two bottles of soju.

SMS SENT TO : ARA.why are you asking me that out of a sudden? how drunk are you already, ara?

He sends the first text, but he doesn’t expect her to text him back answering his question. He’s trying to make the situation a bit lighter, knowing that his next text might be a bit longer than expected.

SMS SENT TO : ARA.um.. you know, i have some good memories of when we tease and laugh at the trainees. but my favorite memory with youi dont wanna be overly emotional but at ahreum’s funeral, you gave me the most meaningful hug i had ever received--- this is cringey, right? but yeah, it felt so weird because i know you knew what i was feeling since the same had happened to you earlier. so it felt different from any other hug from any other person. like... you knew what i was going through, so it felt like that hug had so much more emotion and meaning that i remember ugly crying on your shoulder for probably like 5min. even though it felt like a whole hour. it was both comforting and heartbreakingbut im really thankful for that, it really meant a lot to me

Seojun really means what he says in the text, and the thought leaves him thinking for a moment. Ara was such a great friend before he left to join the army, he doesn’t find a reason to keep pushing her away like he’s been doing to most people --- even to the ones he considered his best friends. 

They didn’t deserve that.