#now present

Boy, but when it comes, you are all like “Where the FUCK you been?! I been waiting and waiting and waiting.... eesh!”

That moment can take your breath away. That moment when you look into your soul and finally realise that everything you think you know is still right, you were never wrong, but your mind has a habit of tricking you into thinking that you are. That moment when you want to slap yourself for not realising it sooner and you feel like you have wasted so much time over all the wrong things....

Maybe it's not like that for everyone, but it was like that for me.... certainly.

Small changes have been creeping into my life over the last 3 weeks or so, and the first major change was simply getting up earlier. So I would normally get up in the mornings between 10am and 11am, and then end up going to bed anywhere between 1am and 3am. I have been waking up for my first week at 9am at the start of the week and by the weekend it was 8am. The next week was getting up at 7.30am at the start and by the weekend, 7am. Now this week is my early week at work, and get up at 6am. This is my time to wake up from now on.

I have been going to bed around 9-10pm but I am hoping to make it a little later as my circadian rhythm starts to settle down a bit more and once I up my energy levels a little, I should have a higher quality of sleep.

I have also stopped smoking weed. I managed to get a lot off someone I know who gace it me for free (aren't friends awesome? haha) but since partaking multiple times daily for a number of weeks, I concluded it was not doing anything good for me - it was at this point where I realised that I needed to change something in my life. A combination of that, plus a conversation with a work colleague has really spurred me on - he is awesome and I hope he never leaves! Love you man! - so a few things all slowly came together.

I have also started trying to be more productive with the extra time I now have in the mornings by doing housework and looking after myself a little more - things like morning showers, catching up on washing up, emptying the dryer and folding it all - without the wife having to ask me to do them - she is happier and so am I. We are also decluttering the house and getting stuff sold on ebay and its a great feeling to clear out the cobwebs and start feeling like you are doing something more with life instead of just going to work, coming home and doing nothing inbetween.

Next week is the start of my morning workouts and meal prepping. I am not in work for the next couple of weeks so it is a good time to start building some good, life changing habits. There is more stuff to update on here, but I will come back to that in another post as I feel I have already written way too much for people to keep reading and still be alert at the end of it... even that outro was long winded lol.