#novelbitching

Not only is she physically strong and skillful, she's mentally hardened. She's lived and seen things.

But she also has weaknesses; she's very vulnerable emotionally and views life waiting to turn on her the moment her back is turned. She is afraid of a slight touch, even the simplest gesture of politeness.

Especially romantically; any advance (however tame and maybe even without romantic intentions) leaves her mentally floundering, her mind unable to process what is happening and leaving her in such a state of confusion she actually begins to cry (usually followed by fleeing)

While she is not uneducated on how to behave in society, she is a little awkward and overly blunt, but not meanly, or more often just keeps her thoughts to herself.

She does not allow her tragic background  to bleed into her actions. She does not see them as an excuse to act or a sort of privilege. She may go so far as lie about her origins. She goes by what she has seen with her own eyes, with what she knows, whether or not these things are congruent with "fact".

Often her chest aches and there is an air of sadness or 'missing-ness' that she can't place. She feels purposeless, but continues to go through the motions. Few things make her genuinely happy--calm, relaxed, and comfortable. She often longs to indulge her drinking/gambling vice but struggles with it in fear she will mimic her father.

Is she a happy person? She is content. She sounds like a someone who never laughs or enjoys the little things in life--very untrue. She loves to laugh and finds brief escape each time she does. She looks around at colors and objects and people and sees the life in them.