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hidup ga sehitam putih itu.
if it doesn't work on you, doesnt mean that it doesn't work on other people. maybe you arent just not good enough, that one just doesn't suit on you. but for anyone else, it might be working.
dan kalau ada sesuatu yang baik untuk kamu, bukan berarti itu satu-satunya jalan yang baik pula bagi orang lain. Bukan berarti itu satu-satunya yang terbaik.
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Transition
These days, glimpsing to the old days back then through old pictures has been one of my activities. I remember the old days were so beautiful. When l was too pure to this world, innocent, was wondering so many things. Why some happened that way? Why that thing goes this way? I was curious on a lotta stuff (well, until now lol). After I recall all of those memories, now I wonder about the other thing. Where is the transition? I am today is the same person as I was a baby, toddler, teen. But where's the transition? I feel like now im evolving but when it started? When was the game-changing occurred?
Sometimes I feel like this life is unreal. We live in this world. The same world that a hundred years ago war happened, the same world where Ted Bundy lived. I still find it hard to believe. This world is filled by murderer also, pedofile is everywhere, when the closest one is cant be fully trusted no more. Also, we're living in the world where pornography exists, people with weird fantasy disturbed other people, sexual harrastment everywhere.
*inhale… exhale…*
Genocide on one side of earth, a big party on the other side.
No matter what, whether I'm ready or not, I still have to accept that I am living in this world. At the other side, I still can (and I have to) take the positivity, that makes me feel grateful for living here. Many good things happened in this world, either in the past or in the present. #theresalwaysabrightside, kan?
Ayoo di 2025 ini kita tarik kembali energi yang sudah pernah terbuang sia-sia. Kembali kita tata lingkungan agar tetap terjaga oleh energi-energi yang positif. Efeknya mungkin bakal ada orang-orang yang pergi dari hidup kita. Bukan karena orangnya yang salah, bisa saja karena frekuensinya yang sudah tidak sesuai dengan kita. Boleh jadi di mata orang lain, aku pun termasuk energi yang mereka hindari. Tidak masalah. Kita selalu punya pilihan untuk melindungi diri agar tetap merasa damai. Seiring berjalannnya waktu, pikiran kita semakin terbuka, ilmu juga semakin bertambah, kemauan untuk upgrade diri semakin besar, sehingga sangat wajar jika pemikiran kita sudah tidak resonate lagi dengan lingkungan yang lama. Jadi, wajar jika beberapa orang tereliminasi dengan sendirinya dari kehidupan kita.
Kita akan benar-benar beradegan dewasa
Mungkin dulu di masa remajanya pernah...
• bingung dengan alasan mengapa orang-orang bercerai, namun di masa depannya ia merasa ternyata cerai memang sebuah jalan keluar.
• menganggap sex education adalah hal yang sangat tabu, namun di masa depannya dia menjadi seksolog.
• ingin bekerja kantoran, namun ternyata membuka bisnis sendiri lebih senang dijalani.
• ingin mempunyai lima anak, kemudian berpikir bahwa tidak mempunyai anak sama sekali adalah keputusan yang tepat.
• ingin menikah di usia 23 tahun, namun ternyata jodohnya datang di usia 40an.
As I've ever heard Marshanda said, manusia itu dinamis.
Setiap harinya kita dapat berubah. Semakin dewasa, pertimbangan-pertimbangan bermunculan. Begitu juga dengan hal yang ketika remaja atau masih kecil kita bingungkan—mengapa orang dewasa bertindak seperti ini dan itu. Ternyata kita akan menemukan jawabannya sendiri, ketika benar-benar beradegan dewasa.
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2024
(I think) I've never talked a lot about a year other than this year.
I realize, the point that keeps me surviving until this year is "Detachment".
This mindset wasn't built in a day, like, I just decided to have this. It was built day by day, week by week, and so on. I kept learning that's how I got this perspective. And yeah, it works. It makes me see that there are nothing truly belongs to me. Apa yang ditakdirkan untukku, akan kembali padaku. Apapun itu, manusia, benda, keadaan, perasaan, apapun.
Anyway, I feel too much mixed emotion in this year, to be honest. But I love to feel them. I got many life lessons as well, which are.. another more life lessons! (ofc, Nou 😀). I can't stop thanking my Allah for all of this. Actually it didn't only happen in this year. But, I don't know, this year is kinda giving hits different vibes and feels a bit intense.
Ketika kau menemukanku pergi
Kau mungkin juga menemukan: struk belanjaan yang berantakan di kamar atau di dompetku, hasil tangkapan layar di ponselku tentang apapun yang menurutku menarik, histori pencarian tentang apapun yang membuatku penasaran, pesan-pesan Whatsapp yang belum terbaca, video tutorial yang kusimpan (dan tidak akan pernah kuikuti), surat-surat yang tidak pernah kusampaikan kepada orangnya, vision board tiap tahun, matras,
dan hal-hal lainnya (masih sangat banyak).
Belum lagi pakaian di lemari, kado dari teman-teman, alat tulis, barang elektronik (kenapa aku mulai merinci lagi?).
Mengapa kita merasa bahagia saat merayakan ulang tahun, namun di sisi lain, merasa takut akan perubahan fisik seiring bertambahnya usia?
