#note2

So, yes - sadly - last (last) Christmas I gave you my heart but the very next day you gave it away. It was over, we were both fed up and tired and sad. I know. You were a cold hearted fucking bitch with me for the months that followed our break up. I'm sure it is much easier to disappear than to confront all your mistakes and start a self evaluation. I am still so pissed at you for that, doing exactly what you told me you'd never do, coward. Taking care of your own self and trying to put logic above your feelings. How did that go, huh?

I went back abroad after those holidays, it was so damn cold in the country I live, and at the time we all had to stay home because of the coronavirus quarantine and such shit.

It was me, within the four wall of my "huge" 20sq. meter studio room - with noone around. Nobody to discuss this terrible and much expected break up with. I remember I used to sleep all day, I was unable to attend any of my classes. My unique legit solution was to sedate me with a joint and listen to the saddest playlist that can be possibly found on Spotify in order to force this rot and rage out of my system. Impossible, man. Thank god for f.r.i.e.n.d.s.

You know they tell you that when a break up is something you expect, it is not supposed to hurt as much. Like, you've made peace with it in certain ways, you know it is coming your way. And yet, how can you not bare it? And eventually how CAN you bare it? Can you? No, you cannot.

I've only reached the point of self-destructiveness one more time in my life before this. Obviously, getting your heart broken is no piece of cake. BUT, getting your heart broken by your first ever girlfriend who you so dearly love and cherish is a whole different level of physical pain. It feels like someone is skinning you alive, rocking your chest open.

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Her mind wasn't loading enough to process what he did while both walking on the school bridge.

-"Thanks for moving away"-

He said after a smooch flew near her unprevented ear.