#not shallow

send me a misconception you think people have about my character and I'll explain if it's true or not.

I WILL SCREAM ABOUT HOW THIS IS SO UNTRUE FOREVER

People that label Madison as a shallow bitch really just haven't taken into account ANY of her history or trauma?

Madison is outwardly a bitch to people, it's some what of a test, but mostly it's her defence. The idea of letting anybody get close to her is absolutely terrifying and something she does try to avoid. Her parents used her for money, men used her for her body and directors in whom her parents entrusted her with weren't the kindest people to her. She was surrounded by bad influences practically from birth. Most of her life lessons are one's she's learned the hard way on her own.

The number one being 'Trust nobody, you're better off alone'.

She suffers with BPD, and I think people also forget much if what they show especially in coven is Madison JUST coming out of active addictions. Sure she'd been to rehab but being released back into the real world with temptation all around is completely different. Madison is just trying to survive and she starts making efforts to change. One of the most important conversations where we witness this is when she is brought back to life by Misty and is talking to Kyle about how alone and dead inside she feels. As much as she wanted him to be her boy toy, she entrusted him with information about herself in such a vulnerable manner. She wanted them to be there for each other and only when she was betrayed did she attack.

Her depth is there, Madison doesn't wear her heart on her sleeve. She doesn't go around telling everyone how unfortunate and shitty her life has been. She tempts fate by getting on with it and hoping that she feels a safe connection with the right person to start opening up.

Honey, looks aren't everything. Looks don't last forever. What matters is if they are smart, funny, and caring. Personality and sense of humor are far more important than looks.

Ive been asked to meet a guy.

Couple of years older than me, is in IT? And works for a well known company.

That’s about it.

I have his last name, but not his first which makes it a little hard to find... not that I was stalking him...

I just want to know what he looks like. Not shallow, but curious. What if my aunt told him my name?? What if he looked me up?

It bothers me a little that I can’t find him in any of my social media.. oh I didn’t try insta yet... lol

Not the point of this post.

Point is! My aunt called like around 8:30 and told my mom about this guy she wants me to meet. So my mom asked me if I wanted to meet him and I said sure, why not. Doesn’t hurt to meet new people, right?

Well. My mom’s plan is to, like in Asian dramas, go with me and my aunt and have dim sum or lunch, a meal or whatever and meet him and his parents.

What are they gonna do after?? Send us off and have us spend together? Or like leave us so we’re alone at the restaurant?

This is such an Asian thing to do. What am I supposed to wear? The people in dramas wear really nice clothes, like dresses... I don’t want to look that nice? Can I just wear jeans? Nope. I think I’m gonna have to wear a dress or something. Ugh. -_-