#nosferatuplz

I just couldn't stand the apathy surrounding the truth of its production, premiere, actors, artistic properties -- you name it. I understand that the "truth" is very elusive in some cases, but people didn't even pursue it; in fact, they repeatedly got the most basic details about it wrong. I seriously would avoid reading any text in tag searches because so much misinformation was in the captions, by people who would never call themselves apathetic, who would even say they were a "huge fan". So often I've felt I'm up against a nonnegotiable wall of self-righteous ignorance. I lost followers when I dared to correct anybody about anything. In small doses, these things happen in every fandom, about every subject, but in Nosferatu it's a constant. Pretty much 90% of anyone mentioning Max Schreck who I got into conversation with was a bully for mystifying reasons to me. I would get random people on youtube finding my videos and feeling so provoked by them that they wrote ad hominem insults and tried to get me to take them down.

And, of course, from summer 2012 to late 2013, I had a bully here at tumblr who repeatedly stole my content and provoked me on a daily basis.

I'll just tell it like it is: I'm not strong on the inside. My feelings are easily hurt. It was too much always feeling like a "warrior" for this stuff when I just wanted to have fun.

I'm not saying I never want to come back to the blog, but I will admit that a lot of what I could post on the subject has already been posted. I can't think of what else I'd do there besides make more edits and gifsets. I wanted to post essays and such but the tumblr crowd hates large clumps of text. It could be time to transfer to my Orlok blog and be creative in different ways.

It was May 16th, 2012, that I opened this blog, so happy birthday to NosferatuPlz! Here's a picture of us together, but Hutter ended up on the wrong side and had to squish in next to his favorite neighbor. Yeah, and I know Orlok's like butt-ramming me. There are almost 200 followers now, and I have no idea what to do with all of you! So I'm just going to keep pretending the place is small and personal, take a few requests, but follow my heart, which seems to have worked out so far. :)

Thank you!