#normal today

pats his head

I REMEMBER YOU ASCENDING ALL THE STAIRS UP TO THE BALCONY TO SEE IF YOU COULD SEE ME HIDDEN QUIETLY AWAY I REMEMBER THE SKIN OF YOUR FINGERS THE SPOT THREE QUARTERS UP ID ALWAYS TOUCH WHEN I WAS OUT OF THINGS TO SAY YOU HELD MY HAND BUT YOU WERE TOO AFRAID TO SPEAK YOU WERE TOO AFRAID TO SPEAK AND I COULD NEVER UNDERSTAND I REMEMBER WHEN YOU LEANED IN QUICK TO KISS ME AND I SWEAR NOT A SINGLE FORCE ON EARTH COULD STOP THE SHAKING OF MY HAND I REMEMBER HOW YOU SMILED THROUGH THE SMOKE IN A CROWDED LITTLE COFFEEHOUSE AND LAUGHED AT ALL MY JOKES AND I EEMEMBER THE WAY THAT YOU DRESSED HOW WE WASTED ALL THE BEST OF US IN ALCOHOL AND SWEAT AND I REMEMBER WHEN I KNEW THAT YOUD BE LEAVING HOW I BARELY KEPT UP BREATHING AND I BET IF I HAD TO DO IT ALL AGAIN ID FEEL THE SAME PAIN I REMEMBER PANICKED CIRCLES IN THE TERMINAL IN TEARS HOW I WEPT TO GOD IN FITS IVE HATED AIRPORTS EVER SINCE IT MUST BE TRUE WHAT PEOPLE SAY THAT ONLY TIME CAN HEAL THE PAIN AND EVERY SINGLE DAY I FEEL IT FADE AWAY BUT I STILL REMEMBER HOW THE DISTANCE TRICKED US AND LEAD US HELPLESS BY THE WRIST INTO A PIT TO BE DEVOURED I STILL REMEMBER HOW WE HELD SO STRONG TO THIS THOUGH WE HAD NEVER REALLY SETTLED ON A WAY OUT I STILL REMEMBER THE SILENCE AND HOW WED ALWAYS FIND A WAY TO TURN AND RUN FROM OUR MISTAKES I STILL REMEMBER HOW IT ALL CAME BACK TOGETHER JUST TO FALL APART AGAIN MY DEAR I HEAR YOUR VOICE IN MINE IVE BEEN ALONE HERE IVE BEEN ALONE HERE IVE BEEN AFRAIF MY DEAR IVE BEEN AFRAID MY DEAR IVE BEEN AT HOME HERE IVE BEEN AT HOME HERE YOUVE BEEN AWAY FOR YEARS YOUVE VEEN AWAY FOR YEARS IVE BEEN ALONE IVE BEEN ALONE IVE BEEN ALONE IVE BEEN ALONE I BREATHED YOUR NAMED INTO THE AIR I ETCHED YOUR NAME INTO ME I FELT MY ANGER SWELLING I SWAM INTO ITS SEA I HELD YOUR NAME INSIDE MY HEART BUT IT GOT BURIED IN MY FEAR IT TORE THE WIRING OF MY BRAIN I DID MY BEST TO KEEP IT CLEAR SO DEAR NO MATTER HOW WE PART I HOLD YOU SWEETLY IN MY HEAD AND IF I DO NOT MISS A PART OF YOU A PART OF ME IS DEAD IF I CANT LOVE YOU AS A LOVER I WILL LOVE YOU AS A FRIEND AND I WILL LAY A BED BEFORE YOU KEEP YOU SAFE UNTIL THE END