she’s like me in many many ways. given. she’s a self insert she literally started out as ME but i uh. had to edit that

i think we are the same as she can be very anxious and quiet especially around new people… but once she spends enough time around someone, no matter how she feels about them her real personality comes out. whether that manifests in being incredibly rude or awkwardly trying to have a nice conversation with them, it shows up.

she feels guilty about being rude a lot… she tries to hold it in but if she REALLY can’t stand someone it just bursts out.. cough cough cough murdoc 🙂🙂🙂 they got in loud crying (on her side) screaming matches a lot in early phases…. i need to figure out their dynamic in later ones though. they still fight just. not to the level of the early ones SHE FEELS SO BAD THINKING BACK ON IT… she doesn’t like that noodle had to listen to them scream at each other !!!! she was protective of noodle i think. not really a motherly bond but more like a cousin or older sister who has to step in when the actual parents can’t (NOODLES NEGLECTED CHILDHOOD…. I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS…) but. she was literally barely even an adult !! she doesn’t know how to take care of this kid any better than the others!! i like to think she made a sort of attempt to do basic caretaking tasks but she wasn’t perfect..

(binge just started playing i’m gonna TEAR MY HAIR OUT)

THIS IS WHAT IT LOOKED LIKE IN HER MIND… noodle usually just tuned out the fighting with her headphones or went to her room (which she spent most of her time in anyway) but ari will Not Forget it she’s constantly apologizing for raising her voice around noodle and she’s just “???? ari it’s fine??” like yeah noodle half-raising herself in a disgusting home full of irresponsible aggressive adults definitely took a toll on her but not quite to the level ari precepts it as… she’s PROJECTING!!!! that’s another thing she just projects herself onto EVERYONE!!!!!! she makes assumptions about people even when the truth is quite the opposite she makes accommodations for what SHE would like… she has trouble thinking like other people..