Hi I hope this isn't rude, but what specifically do you believe in your non-trinitarianism? I'm interested in learning more, especially if you have resources for anything related. Have a blessed day!
I believe in the complete and total sovereign authority and power of God, and that there is nothing which can be equal to the existence, power, and authority which God holds. That is to also say, that I believe in the hierarchy of life, which places God over all, Jesus second, equal in power but not in authority to the Holy Spirit, and beneath them all being all creation.
I do also heavily believe personally that it is not man’s position to determine the true nature of the Godhead, and that the existence and nature of the relationship between God, Christ, and the Holy Ghost is beyond what we on earth can comprehend, and that attempts to change, or shift the nature of God from what was revealed exclusively to us through the Bible is heretical. The relationship between God and Jesus is only ever referred to by Jesus directly as God the Father being the one true God, who is above Jesus; and I believe that was on purpose.
Jesus’s teachings on earth points everything back to his Father being greater than he, indicating his subordination to the father. He makes it very clear that he exists submissive to God and not equal to Him. He had a divinity, but it was not absolute divinity and required God the Father.
“Jesus saith to her, ‘Be not touching me, for I have not yet ascended unto my Father; and be going on to my brethren, and say to them, I ascend unto my Father, and your Father, and to my God, and to your God.’”
John 20:17 YLT98
Christ was crucified, underwent his death, and was exalted due to his perfect obedience and his perfect fulfillment of Gods will. Jesus learns from the Father, receives authority from the Father, submits to and obey the Father as well. Christ was begotten at some point prior to creation to be the savior of mankind, and is the way through which people are brought closer to God. Jesus was appointed divine lordship and because of this, can be worshipped as a means of honoring God.
In short, the New Testament portrays Jesus was explicitly distinct from God, he obeys God, prays to God, and outright declares that God the Father is HIS God and Father. The New Testament also shows Jesus to be pre-begotten, holding a form of divine authority after his exaltation.
For resources, I would look to the writings of Michael Servetus, Faustus Socinus, the Racovian Catechism, and John Biddle “Twelve Arguments drawn out of scripture”
