#nonnetta

Hi there! Long time no see, I know. But I swear I'm back this time. I've already 4-5 illustrations ready to share with you and at least a couple of more I'm working on. I'm full of new ideas, past WIP works I'm ready to complete or revamp, new headers for Facebook and my blog to do, some Christmas-y stuff I'd like to tackle and lots more. "Sadly" I work full time, so I don't have all the time I'd like to dedicate to drawing. For this reason, I'll try to do weekly updates to avoid posting lots of new stuff in a week and then going back on hiatus until something new is ready. Just be aware I've gone full digital in the past few months: I've an iPad now, so all my illustrations are now a combo between Procreate and Photoshop. I'm still going slow because I'm exploring which kind of brushes I like in place of my usual coloured pencil, so be patient with me. But I really hope you like the results. I'm alternating between my usual conceptual illustrations featuring my puppet Num, my bear&panda slices of life ones and silly cat drawings, and you'll see a bit of everything in the upcoming weeks. For starters, instead of sharing my first new creation, I'm posting my latest one as it was supposed to be a birthday card for my boyfriend's birthday on November 13th. Yeah, I'm bad with illustration deadlines, but happy belated birthday, Robearto ;) This is a mix of bear&panda + silly cat illustrations. I've discovered my cats like to share opinions! Fingers crossed you like as much as I like it, I'd lots of fun in drawing it :) Let me know what you think!

. 🎨 .Need to love. 🧑🏻‍🎨 #Nonnetta Rush over me with depths of darkness, and thrust me into your soul. Hit me with the worst you’ve got buried within years of addiction and shame. Show me why you don’t deserve perfection, why you chased so many away. Let me hold you when all you want is suffering to make up for all those failures and unmet goals. When you’re too tired to put that lipstick on and fake a smile, give me the chance to stay awhile. Not that you’ll encounter a god or good one but to show you that you’re not the only one. With anger that burns deeper than our sun and demons who date back to infinity, I’ve sown my fair share of damage. My lies crept up on lovers who put that ring on their fingers. I ran away from love. Dearest, there’s no way in hell you’ll outdo me. My flight instinct consumed more relationships that I can count. Let me run my fingers through your hair for a few decades. Allow me the mercy of seeing another flawed one up close. No, I won’t save you from self-loathing. But, I can be myself to extents that provide you with a good look in the mirror. Then, when you’re ready, I’ll pick up the keys to drive us to the place I call home. Crowds gathered around the fire, you’ll see what kept me alive. Endless lives tattered, bruised, and broken; all of us went through the unspeakable and did things that we regret. You’re free to leave anytime human. But, I refuse to let you encounter someone above it all. I only have so much time before God reverses the effects of gravity. Someday, they’ll call my spirit to that place so many philosophers dreamt of through writing. Till then, when you’re ready, you’ll find me sitting in the shadows contemplating how many others hate the pain reminding us that this place can be brutal . . . there’s hope. - oxiegoeimi young 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟 (at Hope) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cg4sqJ7pSLR/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

. 📸 Title: . F r a g i l e . 📸 Artist: #Nonnetta . I realize how confident many are in me. Here is where I try my best to balance that crap out with reality. Unfiltered and unparalleled vulnerability, laced with a good education and talent for writing; this introvert knows how to manipulate language like breath in my body. I discovered this as a child, having controlled emotions and lovers alike . . . Grew tired of the make up, so I decided to let the flames grow wild. Rather than paint this barn, I came forward without clothes or self-defense. Now? I get to see who actually wants to hang with me, rather than protect relationships through lies. Jealous? Don’t be, unless you want to be lonely. Anyways, it doesn’t take smarts to be facetious. It doesn’t take strength to wear down giants. The secret? Don’t have any . . . secrets. I am a masochist, veteran, doctor, fool, and wanderlust. I subscribe to divinity. I don’t want to get married or have children. Not a second goes by that I would rather be here than eternity. Grant me one thing only? Trust. Everything else? Useless details. - oxiegoeimi #naive 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing #source journey #create #coexist together 💜🌠🌅🌟 (at Hope) https://www.instagram.com/p/CSLrDNvLTxN/?utm_medium=tumblr

. 📸 Title: .Fixing a broken heart. 📸 Artist: #Nonnetta . I rarely open up my chocolate factory, so listen closely or miss the opportunity altogether. If you’re allergic to the peanuts of transparency or have a habit of dipping your hands into the chocolate river of doubt, this is not for you. Enough warning, let’s begin. If you want to teach someone confidence, let them win. But, do it in a manner in which they believe that you are a sore loser so that they will soak in validation. If you want to heal the broken, feign trauma and crisis happening on levels which make you seem incompetent. It’s human nature to comfort a crying infant, to pet a lonely puppy, and to step up beyond their natural disposition in order to save hurting individuals. If you want to be intelligent, silence your presuppositions, expertise, and imaginations to invest fully in the manna which life is constantly sharing with those who will just listen. If you want to be happy, take the hinges off of your front door, open each window, share your address with everyone, and let all enter to access your bare soul. If you want validation . . . Well, just don’t want validation. I spent every penny on breaking down reality, challenging my heart to question those I feared the most to their faces, and discovering just how average I am in comparison with the whole. So, rather than share a bit of enlightenment, I’d like to embrace every opportunity to just be young, dumb, and innocent. The three are actually synonyms for the word love. It’s safe to assume that you didn’t need to hear any of this; and to be forthright, it’s super uncomfortable writing anything at all. That’s the fun part though . . . - oxiegoeimi #psychology 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing source journey #create #coexist together 💜🌠🌅🌟 (at Hope) https://www.instagram.com/p/COvOkVwn6hI/?igshid=sx5hhvjei15f

Stanotte avrei voluto scrivere. Stanotte, quella dopo il delirio delle mani calde e pesanti come rocce e fragili come carta velina; la notte dopo che sono tornata ad essere un pezzo di ghiaccio grezzo che suda e forse piange (e si piange addosso). E tu così forte, e lei così forte. Non fa più male e forse dovrei preoccuparmi perchè è una strana sensazione: nuova. No, aspetta. Sì, proprio qui. Fa ancora male. E vaffanculo, quando cazzo verrà la nonnetta Sophie a sgomberare la mia testa della polvere che continua a farmi starnutire fino a piangere?

.Sober drunk. by `Nonnetta