#non-relationship

Dirk Gently is lacking in almost everything. Direction, purpose, and experience are all things far out of his reach and the closer he looks the more empty the universe seems.

He doesn’t have anything now but a tugging in his stomach and an unhealthy amount of blind faith in knowing that he can ride that wave until it drops him.

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This is the last in a series of stories looking at the different people Dirk has been in his lifetime, and how they are all a part of him even if he tries to keep them separate.

We'll finish with Dirk Gently, a man who is everything and nothing all at once.

“Project Icarus is not a person. It should be because he doesn’t feel anything, blank, detached, a suit of armour with nothing inside.

Project Icarus is not a person because there is far too much going on inside of him to be contained inside of a human being.”

*** This is the second in a series of stories looking at the different people Dirk has been in his lifetime, and how they are all a part of him even if he tries to keep them separate.

We pick up with Project Icarus, a defense mechanism that is arguable at best in it's efficiency.

“Sooner or later he’ll get swept up in something and chatter away or wander off, following a thread only he can pull on and ending up at the strangest conclusions. He’s clever, bright, and imaginative, sometimes to the point where his teachers and parents are concerned, because Svlad Cjelli knows things he shouldn’t.”

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This is the first in a series of stories looking at the different people Dirk has been in his lifetime, and how they are all a part of him even if he tries to keep them separate.

We start with Svlad Cjelli, a boy who wears his heart on his sleeve.

Feelings have never been reciprocated like this before and I’ve never felt so special. It’s only been a fucking week. How the hell can someone feel all of this in a damn week of knowing someone? Am I crazy or is it some weird serendipitous fate? Part of me wants to think it’s the latter.

Whenever I hear a Nickelback song, I think of him.

It’s kind of funny, because I probably wouldn’t remember otherwise. But people like to hate Nickelback, so it brings up memories.

The timing was wrong. It always is. If I hadn’t been dating someone when I met him, he might have asked me out. And I might have said yes.

I won’t pretend to remember very much about Nickelback Boy. I’m sure we had things in common because we’d talk after group projects. And sometimes after class, we’d go to Carl’s Jr. to hang out. He’d get a breakfast sandwich or something. And I’d get coffee.

He told me that I should listen watch the Savin’ Me music video (back when music videos were still a thing). “You’ll like it,” he promised. And I did.

I had what I was going to say to him today, but there wasn't a good time really.. & ugh.  It's not even a conversation. It's only 4 words that I want to say. it's a comment because of last Tuesday.