I have four urgent outputs due today. Had weeks to work on them. Of course I started them all as soon as they were assigned, forgot about them, then started working on them again this Monday. Finished two by last night. Vowed to finish the last two today.
Woke up at noon. Why? Yesterday I had like 5 cups of coffee to help me cram, and so I stayed up until 5am in a state of caffeine-induced awakeness, endlessly scrolling through Tumblr and Reddit. I even looked at Yahoo "News."
So that's half the day gone.
Cooked myself an elaborate lunch for no good reason. The bolognese took two hours to make. It was good though.
Sat down in front of my laptop at around 3pm, all the necessary files open, my Spotify set to my "classical music" playlist. Couldn't focus.
Went back on social media. Couldn't focus on that either. Distracted by stressing about the fact that I was not getting any work done.
Finally convinced myself to begin working at 5pm. "Shit it's 5pm, the workday is almost over, I have to DO SOMETHING."
Stopped at 6.30pm to feed my dogs and play with them.
Tried to work again. Did not succeed.
It is now 9pm. I am lying calmly in bed typing here on Tumblr, horribly aware that I am only 25% done w/ the remaining two outputs.
I have no idea how long I'll keep lying here, the minutes ticking by, getting more and more anxious about my absolute non-productivity even as I continue to procrastinate.