#non-ff

Not mine, linked in a discord.

Okie doke, seems there’s some misunderstanding about what “scheduling” is and why I need to do it. So I want to make sure everyone moving forward knows.

The issue

I have anxiety that is triggered by uncertainty and not knowing what’s going on and going to happen . I like to have a plan, I like to have things set up. Having someone spring something on me last second or change plans last second really really sucks for me. (Kind of literally a control freak when it comes to my time, soz) *Edit to add* I completely understand things happen IRL! That is understandable and I won’t get upset about that! I have a very busy RL myself being a stay at home mom with two kids... it can get crazy!

How this relates to RP

I have to schedule my rp. So when I tell you my days and times that I can and can’t rp, that is NOT me trying to be difficult, that is me giving you the exact times you can expect me to give you time. That sounds a little harsh, what I mean is that I WANT to rp with you and I want to make sure that you can count on me. Spontaneous rp is very hard for me so if you never tell me when you can or can’t rp, sadly we will likely rarely get to rp because it’s very hard for me to say yes to random rp. Also, because I do make plans (ingame or elsewhere, with other people or just myself), there’s a high chance that if someone waits last second to ask to rp, I may not be able to due to other plans being made. 

This is not me being difficult. This is not me making excuses. If you are the type of person that doesn’t like to plan a time to meet up, that’s totally fine, it just means we may have a little difficulty rping. That’s not me asking you to change and that’s not to say we will never be able to rp, just means that it’s going to be a little bit of a struggle. So, we can either work something out or we simply will have to accept we are not rp compatible, which is ok, we can still be friends!

A bonus: Alts

This is another topic that I have struggled with so I’ll address. I tried to focus on one character, I tried not to have alts. I learned that I am not happy when I have only one character. If that one character has nothing going on, people flaking out, rp falling through, no investment and all efforts to change that don’t work, it is very devastating and upsetting. I have accepted that I am an alt player. I love having lots of personalities to choose from, I love having characters to write with (all of my alts always know each other, it makes it more fun that way). 

I understand that a lot of people shy away from people who play alts, and that’s ok, that’s your choice. However, don’t write me off because I play alts as someone unreliable. I maintain histories and personalities on multiple characters, I will rp them all the time, any time, in discord, tumblr, in game. I will give a character more attention based on who is actively putting in the effort to rp with me, I don’t just rotate through characters for no reason and there are a few that I prefer over the others when on down times, ie: when I have no or little rp going on ingame for a character. Those may change but at the moment, @ahtun-swars, Sabine and my lalafell have my attention in game. This goes along with scheduling as well, just like with people who have a single character that has other people interested in rping with them, if you wait till last second, it’s possible they won’t be free to rp. Has nothing to do with alts, but everything to do with who is and isn’t making an effort to rp with me. If someone asks for rp and wants to get to know Sabine, you’ll find me on her a lot because someone is actively taking an interest in her. If someone is actively interested in RPing with Ahtun and Sabine, then you’ll find me on either of those based on the play times and scheduling of the person or people who are actively making an effort to rp with me.

No one can expect someone to drop everything for someone else when they already have plans, that’s a little bit selfish, isn’t it? 

If you don’t like to rp with alts, that’s fine, but please don’t belittle me for not having a “main” and make it seem like it’s a major tragedy that I have alts. If that’s not your jam, that’s totally cool, but that doesn’t make it ok for you to be a jerk.

In conclusion