Rough work week, rough few whole life weeks truth be told, lol. Y’all know I hate to ever admit it, but I’m exhausted. If all this period required was work ethic or willingness to push myself physically...I can do much more. But these current challenges also require emotional intelligence/engagement and while I eventually became adept at dealing with crises professionally by disengaging emotionally—I’m stellar at creating an emotional distance from things(clinical detachment, if you will)—what happens when you can’t disengage? What happens when you can’t lead solely with your head and you can’t fade into the bush like Homer? I do not have the answers and I am out of my depth, yet I have to stand and deliver insofar as I have anything to offer. Feeling as if I have this diminished ability to protect myself or erect walls emotionally is my f#cking kryptonite and you can see it in my face/body. I have watched my vitiligo go absolutely nuts in only a few months, with patches of melanin disappearing so quickly that I am stunned…and I’ve been living this process for 30 years. It isn’t the point, just a sign of the stress. Regardless, I know that these things keep coming back around in my life via different challenges because I’ve yet to grab hold to what it can teach me (i.e., GROW) and I know enough to remain grateful that I still have the opportunity. #hopethismakessense #transparency #nocomplaintsthough (at Newark, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/ChvjTu0uafR/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
