#nochara

"It's a nice day outside...?"

"One day they told me this, clearly it wasn't a good day outside, I was holding something sharp, and I hurt innocent people."

"It was me, but I used someone else in my place. I don't remember much of what I was thinking. I learned that, I thought that's what I was there for."

"But it's beautiful today, I think."

I admit I miss you to the peak of the bottomless pit of my heart a hole formed on its flaws things aren’t the same as what we had where you came to me in need of relieve where you came to me in need of affection

mate, I want to have a hold on your sides once more tugging on the edge of your uniform tickling your waist, neck, and such spots you owned the fun we have had was never a comparation to anything

I missed you like crazy I choked on my own sobs dreaming about you too overwhelming inside yet you’d never think of how did I feel

it’s stupid of me to dwell on this for so long knowing you for more than a decade doesn’t mean that I comprehend you well you’re too full of yourself giving out half-hearted compliments didn’t care even if I was about to shed a tear

who changed? me or you? I lied on my own decision to pluck you away my heart opted to keep you useless tears fell endlessly at the dream I had about you

mate, friend, my used-to-be best friend, I have this overwhelming-nearly-killing-me-to-death feeling for you the thing that was never reciprocated by you

I’ll hang these shoes you used to own right away as the recognition of our ended friendship yes it was temporarily made out I had no regrets back then but now, I regret most

may you be happy with any dedications you have had made for you for your sorroundings and things are made to be forgotten so do promises are made to be broken yet feelings are made to be deeply kept

I love you, as platonic as I can ever be it’s still considered as love, a weird affection take care mate

I hated you and still do but God has no fond towards those who hates

so I’m officially letting this hatred to pour away