#noblisms

            ‘ i’m simply elated to know it’s to your liking! ‘

                                   ❛      ARE THEY EVEN GOING TO COME BACK? ? ?       ❜

DEAR CIEL,               I know that this letter will never reach you, for you are already gone. Your fingertips will never urge this letter from containment, nor will your eyes scan the words I am writing to you. For that, I hold I sadness deeper than anything I have ever felt, and I am most certainly never overcoming it. I am writing this final letter in the hopes of being able to let you go, though I know that in truth I will undoubtedly keep my attachment to you for as long as I may live, for you have always remained very dear to me; in life or in death. I understand with the utmost respect that you wished to be parted from this world and the cruelty it had thrust upon you, though I am not certain I will ever truly able to forgive you for it. Of course, do not think me angry at all, I am simply a wishful thinker, and to think that you and I would have happier years to come was indeed a very foolish action to partake in.      My father mentioned that he was proud of how I handled your death. I felt like an imposter. I do not deserve the praise. Half the time I feel like I am barely holding it together. But, I also resent having to live up to that kind of compliment. Admittedly, and without falsity, I did not handle it well. I allowed myself to feel dead inside and I teetered on the verge of screaming at the Lord, for the life he had given you. I may not have cried with hysteria, but tears were undoubtedly shed for you. Perhaps I did not wallow in the unfairness of it all,  but my thoughts were plagued with terrible things. I felt guilty because, that is not how you would have wanted me to feel, though I needed to have those feelings in order to move past them, but being complimented for not showing them felt so very wrong. Compliment me for not wallowing, for moving on the next day, for getting on with it but do not praise me for breezing past them, because I did not nor, should I have been expected to.      In the blaze of it all, I do wish you would find your way back to me, as you did the last time we were parted by means such as this. I was so elated to have you back by my side, and I loved you so, even with all of the wicked things you said. You had such an odd sense of humour, it did indeed take me several minutes to understand your jibes and sayings. They were, however, always uttered with the utmost intelligence, which is something anyone would admire, even from afar like myself. Thank you for allowing me to hear them, Ciel. Your voice was always a pleasure to hear, whether speaking directly to me or not, it was comforting to know you were there. Thank you for making me so unbelievably happy, and for the time we shared. It was truly the most memorable time of my life, and I shall always think of it in good spirits. I do hope you are happier now, and that your accomplishments have given you peace at the end of your torment.                                                           Always,                                                                        Elizabeth Ethel Cordelia Midford.                                                                                            ( Lizzy. )

 ❝ This dress I got for Lizzie is       much better than any dress             Ciel could offer. ❞

NOTHING CAN STOP ME NOW.

iM FUCKING CRYING RIGHT NOW OMFG 

          ❛ Hello, hello! ❜