#noah-rants

But like...Thank fucking GOD there was finally an open therapist for me to see when there was, cuz I was so close to comitting and otherwise and there would've been a very specific group of people that would've known it was probably because of them-

When I eventually die I dont want anyone to blame themselves for it, even if it is inherently their fault, because although Im doing so much better there are occasionally weak spots in that 'better' where I think about it again, and i cant help but think about the people that would blame themselves. The people who would be to blame, but dont deserve to bare that on their shoulders. the people that need me now and the people that will need me in the future.

The no.1 reason I could never kill myself isnt because im afraid of what does or doesnt happen after, but because I know how much losing someone that way hurts, and I could never be selfish enough to put someone through that.

In my eyes, the most hurtful thing you can do to someone is take life away from yourself.

So, anyone actually reading right now...

I love you.

Yes, I would notice if you didnt wake up.

Yes, I would notice if you never logged on.

Yes, I would notice if your spot was empty.

Yes, I would notice if your voice wasn't there.

Yes, I would notice if your smell didnt fill a room.

Yes, I would notice if your smile died with you.

Yes, i would notice if your spark was gone.

Yes. I would notice how you hide yourself.

Yes. I would notice if you were gone.

I would notice if you died.

I am her fake bf tho cuz her pervy ex keeps tryna date her again

I think im just describing a polycule...or a very loving cult.

I dont see the point in destroying something you bought before you found out the creator was a bad person.

Buying more stuff from them after? Yea, thatd bad. But if you already owned it? Its kinda to late, they already have your money. Just enjoy the thing, you already have it and continuing to enjoy the thing you already bought isnt gonna put more money in their pockets (unless its some sort of weird subscription style payment thing?? Idk those are weird.)

This is how i feel with harry potter.

JKR sucks ass, but ive had the movies and whole set of books since I was 11. Am i gonna buy more hp related thing? Fuck no. Am i going to watse and destroy what I already own? Also fuck no! The money is already in her wallet, destroying it will do nothing but be wasteful and contribute to unnecessary waste.

Same goes for shitty people with makeup brands (you know who.)

Like, men why? Cishet men are known historically for liking women, its like the only thing i agree with 90% of cishet men on- Cishet men are also known to enjoy honkers, which I also agree with, but do they know you also have to love the woman said honkers are attatched too? Which means not trying to take away their rights or saftey?

Cmon men, youre giving the trans guys a bad name- I wish to be a man, just not that flavor of man.

A wise man once said, to enjoy the titty you must enjoy the titty haver. (that wise man is me.)

Im convinced some straight men dont even actually like women. Slap some honkers on their best friend chad and suddenly theyre questioning their existence.