UNFFf youre so right. i like squeenny when squee is still a little kid and johnny is still early in his 20s so when i talk about it keep in mind thats the version im thinking about. how do you think squee would cope with his attraction to nny? would he even understand that what hes feeling is attraction? do you think he would be ashamed? would he think theres something wrong with himself? or would he not think much of it and just brush it off as a weird feeling?
how would squees attraction effect how he acts around johnny? would he avoid him or try to be around him more?
do you think the whole murder thing factors into squees attraction? i usually like to think that squee is attracted to johnny DESPITE of the fact that hes a murderer...but sometimes i like to imagine squee develops a lowkey fetish for murder bcause of johnny and it becomes a part of what he likes about him
uum sorry for being weird lemme know if this makes you uncomfortable and ill stop talking about this
MM I'm not uncomfortable at all. Sometimes it just takes a while for me to gather my thoughts on things ya know. Especially with Squee. I don't think about him often I'm just like his parents lol. UMMMM
I think Current Squee would be too preoccupied with all of the bullshit that is constantly happening to him that he doesn't really. Pay much attention to it. He knows he likes Nny a lot and that's about it, it doesn't really hit him that "OH I LIKE LIKE THIS MAN" until a few months after Nny's initial disappearance.
As far as him feeling as if there is something wrong with him about it I think it's just like a "one more thing onto the pile that I gotta deal with" and he deals with it by. Not doing anything at all. Whatever feelings he has about Nny he's gonna have and there's nothing he can do about it except maybe talk to Shmee about it and get sad when Shmee tells him that Nny is a bad person.
I think that after Squee seeing Nny kill that child predator in front of him he developed some kind of autoassassinophilia (??? no idea how to spell today sorry) or maybe even autonecrophilia. POSSIBLY BOTH WHY NOT. He has both now.