#nkiwrites

“Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.”  --- Hebrews 11:1

Have you ever been in the verge of moving forward but then you see yourself failing to do so, and decide to go backwards?

Recently, I have been writing down my thoughts in my planner book (since I don’t keep a journal anymore) and I have seen the pattern of my unconscious... I’ve been going back and forth; struggling if I should or should not; and end up being stuck with hope --- a hope with no proof; a hope that scares me.

But one day, I came across a bible verse which lightened up my insane-going-mind.. “Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” It may sound cliche if you know me personally, but I woke to God’s words. The struggle to keep going or stay stuck has been uplifted, the confusion to move forward or to keep begging has been answered. I SHOULD.

I marked on my planner the day I decided to end things, and start a new beginning. Well if you have reached this point of reading you might wonder what this is about -- it’s the battle of my heart and my brain that involves love, and career. Should I leave? Should I move? Should I? or should I not?

And add this verse for today: Romans 5:5 “And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.”  therefore I am decided that I really should:

1. Quit my job 2. Find a better job 3. Be a better person 4. Be better for God

Today I will give in, and today I will open everything to them. Wish me luck!