---- i always wondering... how if my eyes are blue? how if i have blonde hair? or... how if i tell him about how much i love him before he left? ---- well, i might still be with him right now. sitting side by side. but i didn't i didn't do that. i didn't have that. either you...you also do not have it or did it. for whatever you always wondering in this life. No ! you have not.! ---- but Dear Darling, if you do not have it, it isn't meant to be yours if you didn't do it, it wasn't meant to be your time. ---- Darling, instead of thinking "how if...".... let's say we are grateful... for who we are, and what we've done. ---- because...believe me! Lord always knows... what best for us.