Yet another year has past, my dear Nickky.
You have no idea how hard today has been, constantly fighting back tears, pushing everyone I love away from me, screaming inside for you to come back to us. I miss that beautiful smile you had, the one that showed your true happiness, beaming from those lovely grey eyes of yours. I miss your hugs, our late night chats, our mess arounds, your love. God, nothing I can put will be even close to how much I miss you. I can't believe it's been yet another year that my beautiful boy has been gone. It's something I'll never get over, I should have been there for you, supported you more. Maybe you still would have felt it was your time to go though, I just wish I could have kept you around somehow. You were, and still are, a truly amazing lad. You supported me so much, no matter what the situation was. You have such a big heart, it's a shame that it couldn't have been around to make more people smile, the way you made me smile. I need to stop writing because I'm about to cry, I might update it later. So many people love you and miss you baby. You will always be my boy, in heart and soul for eternity. I love you. Rest in peace sweetheart<3
