Just once i want to actually spend time with someone on new years, its been 17 years and ever since i became i teen my parents have left me the house to myself, and not once have i had people come over, i ask people to come but they say they have other plans or just flat out tell me no. I mean i realize i am attractive at this point in my life, but the level of loneliness i suffer from, the amount of depression i go through and the amount of friends i think i have are amazingly none. Someone come over my house and just let me say hello to you, that's all i ask for. A guest to a party i will never have, someone who just knock on my door say, hello, walk into my house, and you don't even have to stay for a minute all you have to do is step foot in my house and i will be happy. But yet again, who would go through all that trouble to make someone happy :C