#newlessons

And, we're back..... Irony of this song is who it makes me think of but also it just came up on my phone, on a random shuffle. 

I know i’ve never been good with making this consistent or even making posts the are relevant. All I’ve done is make the a place for me to just vent. I have an instagram with the same name and I want to try and make a post there and also make a post here. They can either be the same post, something related to each other or something completely different. End of the day, and how i’ve always said, this is my form of social media and therefore its my choice what I post. Obviously I try and keep things somewhat neutral and not giving names or really anything to specific, but I’ll post it how it is and post the truth to the situation or the truth to how I feel. 

It’s somewhat weird to come back to this and just start talking about what's going on in my mind or what's going on in my life. I want to not only catch up this blog on what's going on but also catch myself up. It’s always interesting to me to see where I was a year ago or even month ago. 

So, I guess we can start off with what this post is mainly about, Boy 1. Boy 1 is now gone...for the most part. I knew at the time of writing last time that it was something that needed to end and for thee most part is. The part that needed to end and to me that's what's the most important. From the time that Boy1 ended is when shit hit the fan at work and it was not only a choice but with my personal life became a time for the to decide to leave Dallas. I knew it wasn't going to be easy leaving my friends and family but really, leaving my family that just moved to be closer to me and be able to see me more. Doing what I do best, I got back on Hinge and changed my location to Houston. Started seeing what was there and also gave me some people to know once I moved. Me being me, I kept going out in Dallas. Met some people, reunited with some people, and well, ran into some people. It’s what I do. Do I still talk to the ones I ran into? yes. Sadly, they aren't a one time thing. They're Boy2. They get a name because they also tattoo me..... I tried to make something with Boy3 who also tattoos and sadly that never developed. Boy2 was a drunk decision and not my finest decision. But here they are, making it into a list....multiple lists. So before I even move to Houston I start talking to this guys...Per usual, I have no expectations because of how guys have been in the past and how guys are especially on dating sites. Well, he did what I said, Read my bio. So here's the introduction to Boy4. I know, this is a lot in a 2 month time frame, but new locations and trying to start new and a clean start. Boy 4 seemed different. He understood why I was still in Dallas looking in Houston. We talked more than I feel I have done to other guys. Best part, he knew when I was suppose to move and even told me welcome to Houston. Well, me being me, went out the night before and was too hung over to want to drive 4 hours to Houston or even think of packing my car to move. I stayed in Dallas one more day....went out one more time, shockingly didn't wake up hung over but weirdly woke up in a random bed in uptown with a random guy...drove picked up my friends and proceeded to leave Dallas to Houston. I was exhausted, starving and somewhat broke from moving. I already talked to Boy 4 about wanting to possibly meet up. Oh! Not only was I starving and exhausted I was also buzzing. I decided to power through a Mikes Harder one the last 20 min drive and that got me for a bit. I unloaded the car and passed out for a nap. Sobered up basically. But managed to get dinner with him. It was almost weird just because I really wasn't in the mood anymore. I figured why not and go see him. It was an aright dinner, he was kinda cheesy and when I left, I just didn't know how I felt. It wasn’t something that I really enjoyed, but it also wasn't a bad time. It was something where I’d see him again and just see where things go. Well, I decided to see him again. Same feelings but It was almost better, maybe not better but it was shocking. He came over and we just chilled, something not many people are use to when a guy comes over. He came over, didn't try to make a move on me. He just came over, smoked and we just chilled. I went to the bar with him after work and when it was time for me to leave is when he kissed me. I still wasn't very into him like it seemed like he was me, but he was a nice guy and I liked spending time with him, we got along well and for me having no friends in Houston the company was very nice. After all that I went back to Dallas for a  concert. Ummm, let’s say Mother Nature had a different idea. Covid-19 was getting worse and worse and they started limiting social gatherings. Sadly the one concert I wanted to see was cancelled. Saturday I hung out with my people and I got the news we were closing until further notice. My weekend in Dallas turned into 2 weeks in Dallas. I was hanging around this guy(Boy5) I met that weekend and it was fine, but it was also kinda annoying. I decided to go back to Houston and get clothes since I had packed for a weekend and was staying for 2 weeks. I bounced around a lot. I went from McKinney, Dallas, Forney and Houston all in about 2 weeks. I got bored and decided to take advantage of the cheap flights. I booked a one-way to Las Vegas and spent a week out there. When I’m with other guys I become distant to others, just out of respect. I got a message from Boy4, he got furloughed from work and decided to move to Georgia and asked if I wanted to make a road trip with him. I booked a flight back to Dallas within 30 minutes and was back in Dallas in less than 12 hours. I spent a couple days with my parents and then made the drive back to Houston on Thursday. Friday as the big trip. Packed a bag Thursday night and was off to Georgia Friday. Basically since then I’ve been in Georgia, so at todays date about a month. It’s been interesting and I’ve learned a lot from being here. I can't really go anywhere because I have no car, plus this town isn't big so its not like I’m missing out on a ton of stuff. I’m watching a lot of TV, rewatching shows, catching up on shows, and finishing seasons from months or years ago. But I’m also spending a lot of time with someone that really means a lot to me. I know this is a long post but Its also a way to somewhat catch up. This is sadly only half of responding to my previous post. The other half of what post and my next post go hand in hand. They go with what's on my mind from last night and what comes to mind often because of everything that's gone on. I know he wants me to tell him what's on my mind, but that's just something I’v never been good at. I don't like to bring my problems on to someone else so I just don't speak them. I do what i do best and I just type them out here or write in a notebook...which ever is easiest and most convenient.