#neunehoff

Transient, ephemeral pleasures are the best in this world. Anything else will always just disappoint you in the end. Get while the getting’s good.

Someone once said that they would not join any club that would allow them to be a member.

Doubtless they said it as a joke.

Their privacy

Unthinkable. 

An eternity of repentance is just that. It’s not an afternoon of repentance. It’s not a fortnight of repentance. An eternity.

Only forever.

I would not.

A vast majority of Myer’s skill in combat is his own. He has built the muscle, done the combat drills and target practice to have the skills he has. All the hypno indoctrination really does is remove his emotions, fears and any part of his thought process that has nothing to do with combat.

I appreciate that when said out loud, that does actually sound very useful - and I suppose it is. It might give him an edge others don’t. I’m just not certain it’s worth it. Like him, I would do it if I had to. For the sake of my planet and imperium.

But only if I had to.

[subject smacks her lips]

Don’t do it if you don’y have to. His brain scans are...hm..

Well...better than when he first got here..

I would undergo it if anyone offered.

Hm. I’m not going to go into huge amounts of detail here. I mean, this is a question about Lara Minhelm - not Sergeant Minhelm. If you see what I mean.

When i first joined the Ragged Edges I was coming off the second time in three years that my squad had been all but destroyed. I felt like a failure. I felt stressed. I didn’t know what I wanted but I know I wanted it a lot - if that makes sense.

A refuge. A place or person I could relax with. Get something back that I lost.

[subject sighs]

With...few exceptions..I’ve never really been good at getting to know people or have them get to know me. So, I mean...I just played the field. Saw what was out there among this crew.  I would make my intentions know and see what worked. Nothing crass, but I wasn’t ashamed either.

In the end, none of them worked out . I didn’t know what I wanted or couldn’t offer them what they wanted. I don’t regret it and I hope they don’t.

Probably me. My hair is a little greasier than Angies so it’s more effected by the amount of time we leave our helmets on. 

It’s my new years resolution and I stand by it. I am struggling to find what works. She lacks the sense schadenfreude that is often the sole form of levity we Kriegers tend to have. But I am experimenting.

The other day, that big Vostroyan woman had returned from a mission, and the skinny little Mordian girl had come marching up to the shuttle bay in full uniform and after several false starts, gave the Vostroyan a crisp salute and said, neat as you please “I am glad you returned safely, Yaroslava. You’re an important asset to this team”

And, for whatever reason, I turned to Angie, and said in the dumbest voice I could muster:

“OH, THEY FUHCKIN!”