#nervousbreakdance

re: nervousbreakdance 's 'We Liked You Better Fat: Confessions Of a Pariah'

It's ridiculous how people are just waiting for our fall. yeah? lmao. As an outcast (kinda) myself, in this little circle of society that I live in, it has always been a trouble to fit in. They will always give you side eyes, judging silently. Why did they dressed up like that, who is their parents, they didn't teach their kids? Even with trivial things.

This is where something that YOU didn't realize; YOU saved lives, provided comfort. Through words that are sung accompanied with rhythms.

You might see it, might not. Things can get worse, they do. I believe things can get worse. But, when you're clouded with these kinds of things (I don't even know how to explain) . you're not really seeing how far you've gone.

As much as these so-called 'fans' back then, claiming they love you yet throwing you under the bus, there's always few back there, back of the room, smiling to you because they know it is better for you that way and they're proud of you, proud of your achievements.

I am talking about this in general.. its. really subjective. people might like it. might not. But, the important thing is, you did it. you achieve want you wanted. you know what is better for you and you went for it.

10 years of Soul Punk and i wish i could ramble all day long how this little project you made back then had given me hope and safety when i needed it the most but im no good at words (no really, im relying on mental dictionary). The messages you were sending through tracks were really strong. strong enough to get me going with hope and promise that it'll get better. it does. it does get better eventually.

Not to be such a cliche, but somehow, i find comfort through Soul Punk (lets put it that way. its late and i don't use lights).