Oct 1, 2025
Started hitting myself cause I can't feel it. Probably shouldn't do that in public
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Started hitting myself cause I can't feel it. Probably shouldn't do that in public
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I really wish I wasn't in pain all the time. It's on varying degrees, but it's always there. And nothing ever shows up on tests and scans. I wonder what it's like to not be in pain at all most of the time unless some incident happens to you, what it's like to not need to take medications every day in order to stay alive. What it's like to not be restricted in your hobbies and activities because of your health.
I know that I can be incredibly cowardly. I can give examples of my many fears, but it requires me to dig up a lot of trauma on my part. So allow me to give one name and two acronyms: coraline, fnaf, dhmis. These three things have traumatised me, and often they ruin things for me. Coraline gave me an unreasoning hatred of neil gaiman. Dhmis scared me away from puppets (and still evokes some very, very unpleasant memories). But since I'm the type who suffers from morbid curiosity and mental fixations, I often get myself into horrible situations. It's why I wish I could censor anything remotely horrific from my sight. It's not nice, constantly having to look over my shoulder to make sure I don't traumatize myself. sigh...
Got a new lunchbox ✨💊
going to CVS is like a monthly field trip now, where I leave the house and browse the magazines, cane accessories, and massage rollers.
Oh, and I forget to wear real shoes instead of slippers.
But at least I've got my pill organizer to make sure I remember whether I took them or not (and what day of the week it is)
Send help the pains getting worse and I haven’t even today but when I try it feels like I’m ripping my jaw in half 😭
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Sorry I've been a lil absent! Health stuff is on a continual decline, and also broke my phone 🤦🏻♀️
Few months back started with cramping and weakness in hands and now it's much worse and spreading up my arms so waiting on neuro (which turns out is another 7 week wait and it has started worsening literally day by day now). My hands have all kinds of weird sensations (same as I have had in my legs for years) but much more severe. I'm dropping things, can't hold a knife or fork, and over the past two days it's starting to spread up my arms like I say. I also have increased fatigue, weakness generally all over, almost complete loss of appetite. So who knows! I have left a message with my GP to explain how quick the progression is so let's see if they can get me in sooner to neuro as at this rate I'm gonna wake one morning and not be able to use my hands / arms at all if it carries on progressing at this speed. Having to buy a waist leash for my dog for safety as I've dropped her lead a few times now. No real pain (which instantly makes me think I'm overreacting even though I know I'm not really) more like aching and when they cramp that's painful and bruises immediately (same for my calves with cramp and bruising). So I have no idea what's going on. And weirdly enough with all my medical history I've actually NEVER seen a neurologist which feels really bizarre, so I'm quite excited in that sense that it's someone new. I wouldn't say I'm worried just yet, but I'm definitely aware of this all being new and "not right"
I'll add some things in the tags with similar symptoms to see if anyone can relate!
Desk Chair Help!
So I've got some known moderate arthritis in my lower back and hips, and other undiagnosed nerve/circulatory issues, but I'll be doing online school for the next year and need to find an affordable but ergonomic desk chair w/ armrests.
If I sit in some kinds of chairs too long, like the standard wood desk chairs or really flat/wide car seats, my hips ache super bad and my legs will both hurt as well, and also just not really work for a few minutes after I get out of the chair. I'll also end up with inflammation in my mid-back and sides that takes days to go away, if I keep using the chair.
Standing desks are out though, because standing in place for too long kills my knees and thighs. Like stuck-in-bed-all-day-and-ice/heating-them bad.
I'm sick of lying in bed while I technically have usable flat space to work, and would appreciate some help!
I know that I'm almost definitely not alone in my struggles, and I was wondering if anyone had any tips/links to share? I don't care abt color/style/etc, I just need the chair itself.
Tl;Dr: My spine is DUMB and i need help finding a desk chair with armrests that has lower back support but is also cheap
Can feeling raindrops be a hallucination?? Like, maybe one or two drops or whatever?? Normally when I go to wipe them off, there’s no water, so I usually just shrug it off since I haven’t been diagnosed with anything yet and think of it as nothing
Hello Anon,
I can’t tell you the exact reason because I don’t know you and I’m not a professional, but what I can tell you is that it often happens to me as well (at least twice a week).
It may be psychological, or they may be hallucinations, I don’t know, but it sounds more like a nerve issues to me. That’s what I think mine is, but I’ve never had it evaluated, so it’s just a guess. Besides, yours could be a totally different case.
If you’re worried, my advice is to go to your doctor and tell them your symptoms. It’s a good starting point.
Keep in mind that sometimes things just... happen in our bodies, and they don’t have any particular meaning (not a bad one, at least).
Take care and send an ask if you need anything else,
Bee