#nerdmercy

A chapter of my life is coming to an end and it’s hard to believe. I love my job at the jail. I love working there with the staff. I’m going to miss working with the awesome Dentist (whom I’ve always called my boss, but we’re both self employed), tossing around chocolates with the nursing staff and sharing gross stories, cracking jokes with the deputies, and just being there. It is one of the few places that I have ever felt 100% comfortable to be myself; that I’ve gotten along with everyone; that I don’t feel like a major disappointment; like it’s home. It’s hard for me to say goodbye. I’ve only got two shifts left there. Two shifts to do all those things with the nursing staff and deputies. Just two shifts to say goodbye..... it breaks my heart. They gave me a chance being fresh from school as a dental assistant and gave me a job that I love and even worked around the fact I was pumping for my daughter. And they have thanked me many times for the amazing atmosphere I have given the dental office and medical teams, for how clean I kept everything, how level headed I stayed in tense situations while I slowly defused the situation. They have been one of the greatest teams/companies I have ever worked for. We were a family able to read each other’s nods and looks and know exactly what to do. It’s hard to find that in a job. But, I hope that the next assistant doesn’t diminish the bond that I solidified with the deputies and medical staff, rather I hope they make it stronger.

*goes to the doctor with lower left abdominal/pelvic pain, doc walks in*

Doc: well clearly you're probably going to start your period soon and that's what the pain is from. Take some Motrin for the next few days and drink plenty of fluids.

..... I'm sorry, what? This is not "period pain". This is not "soon to be a period" pain.

Doc: You should know the difference by now, you're 25.

Duh, doc. Will you please just feel my abdomen and see exactly what I'm feeling and where.

Doc: No, it's just period pain.

*in very severe pain and outrageously irritated* .... that. Wasn't. A. Request. I just happen to use my manners.

Doc: *exasperated sigh* Fine. Lay back.

*lays back on the table and doc feels abdomen*

Doc: .... WOW!

Yeah?

Doc: uuuuhhhhhh..... let's send you into ultrasound.

Ya think?

*gets sent to ultrasound and comes back to the doc staring at the results*

Doc: How much pain did you say you were in again?? Because this cyst looks like it hurts.

Get one on your testicle and tell me how it feels.

Doc: right. Well here's a prescription and hopefully it bursts or goes away soon. Call us sooner if the pain gets worse.

This year I found out my dad isn't my bio dad. 24 years they wait to tell me this shit. Really!?

Apparently no one in this house hold, other than myself, cares about my or my kids health. Fucking three feet away from a door to the outside and they smoke in the damn house.

My love life is a sham lol. I guess I'm always the perfect place holder until a newer model comes along. It sucks, but I deal.

My body hates itself and tries to tear itself apart inside out. But I can't have my tubes tied until I'm 27 because "what if you meet the right man" "you'll change your mind" "you'll regret it" yeah. I'm really going to regret NOT BEING IN PAIN FROM MY REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM. But, sure.

• I'm a dental assistant

• I work in a jail

• Gamer.... when I actually decide to play

• Animal lover. I love working with animals and caring for them. I love seeing them in the wild and getting a chance to interact if they allow it

• Love the fall, hate the freezing cold. Arthritis. It sucks. 0/10 would recommend

• Avid reader

• Music lover

• Two kids, four fur babies, three fun babies.

• Ravenclaw