#nerdcattes

Nerdcatte!AU omfg they’re so C U T E

Both of us: “What the...?”

Rinh: “Did... did Gis give you this date idea?”

T’ahl: “M-maybe.”

2) Who they want to please the most. 

I… I really don’t know how to answer this.  I’ve spent my entire life aiming to please no one that I… I really don’t know if I even want to please anyone anymore.  I mean, I do want to make T’ahl happy, but I don’t think that’s really the same thing, is it?

5) A cherished personal belonging. 

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The flower T’ahl proposed to me with.  I’ve pressed it, and I’m never going to let it go.  He’s gotten us new rings, and they’re beautiful filigrees, but that flower will always mean so much to me.

17) What they’d sing at karaoke

18) Special talents they have

Well, a lot of what people consider special talents, I’ve really just taught myself.  I suppose that if you had to say I do have a special talent, it would be my memory.  At will, I can have perfect recall of something I’m experiencing.  Sometimes it happens without me making it happen, but normally, I can control when it does.

I call it perfect recall because it really is perfect.  I’ll remember sensations, emotions, thoughts, feelings, everything.  It’s like I took a chunk of time and saved it for myself.  It’s difficult to describe the… mechanism, I guess, that I use to recall things, but the recollection is always there.

Chiastolite - How they deal with loneliness

Loneliness has been a part of my life as far as I can remember.  And far more than I’m willing to admit to.  But while I do experience it, and I do experience it quite acutely, I’ve developed mechanisms for coping.  These things haven’t just developed recently, they’ve taken me my whole life to discover.

I’ve learned how to turn my books into company.  I’ve learned how to actually lose myself in work, in reading, in problem solving.  I have been gifted with a powerful memory and vivid imagination, which makes remembering the ones I’ve loved all the more easier, and makes imagining spending time with them in my daydreams as natural as breathing.

But most powerfully, I’ve learned how to accept being lonely.  It has been such a prominent aspect of my life that I don’t know how I’m going to handle being without it.  T’ahl has become my company, and when we wed, I am going to move in with him, I have decided.  But I do know that, no matter what, I’ll figure out how to handle the lack of constant loneliness.  I need to.  Because being with him feels so much more satisfying than any of the coping mechanisms I’ve ever had for loneliness.

Dear Diary,

T'ahl and I have been traveling together across Eorzea, praying before the marks of the Twelve as they were listed on the map that the citadel gave us.  We've been to the Shroud, La Noscea, and Thanalan together.   And I don't know if I can love this man any more.  I don't think there's an upper limit on how much you can love someone, but if there is, I'm either there or I've exceeded it.

I've told him almost everything.  About her.  About the time at Nophica's Wells.  About Flar.  About the vision.  Not that I would have lied to him about it all before, but I hadn't brought it up unprompted, either.  Now it's all there, he knows everything, or just about.  The things he doesn't know... I don't know if I want to live with them, myself.  Maybe someday I'll admit to them, to myself, at least, but the things that wake me at night, the things that pull me away from reality, those things he knows.  The important things.

He wants me to live with him after we're wed.  Live with him in Limsa, stay with him.  And I want to.  I'm going to.  I can't imagine a life away from him now, not after today, and knowing that he misses me as much as I miss him while we're apart...

My heart has melted and overflows my chest with love.

The rings he had made for us are... I can't even describe how magnificent they are.   The filigree work on them is astounding, I've never seen its equal.  And they match, his ring and mine.  But the flower he proposed to me with, I'm never discarding it.  It's the second time in my life a man has given me flowers out of love, and he's the only one that's proposed.  But the rings he had made for us... I'm far from upset about them!

I have truly found the other half of my soul in T'ahl.  I want to never be without him in my life, no soul feels as right against mine as his does, no arms as perfectly embracing as his around me.  Twelve help anyone who tries to take him away.

Death, let thyself be warned.  I will pursue even your destruction if you take T'ahl from me.

I will not lose a third time.