Making a list of all the things I want to accomplish now that I’m finally starting the proper medication
And I’m realizing that I don’t just want things to get better. This list isn’t “do a few things to be happy.” This list is a long term list of goals to change the entirety of who I am as a person because the first 22 years of my life have molded me into something I don’t want to be.
Is it possible to hit the reset button? To unlearn two decades of bad habits and negative thinking? Like fuck how much therapy is this going to take how many years of reprocessing and moving on
I am not living like this ever again I will not let this happen to me again it’s been too many times and for too long I am going to get myself up on my feet and walk away from this place and this person I hate so religiously and become who I was supposed to be the whole fucking time
I am so. Tired. Of self loathing. I’m ready to wake up in the fucking morning and feel like the day is mine for fucking once in my life
