Since itâs looking like a guts on the floor night, Iâm gonna throw my stuff out in the open while Iâm still awake so this doesnât keep me up any later than it should.
Peter - I donât even know if you have a tumblr and I donât particularly care.
I still havenât forgiven you for that video and I donât believe I will. You acted all buddy-buddy even after nearly bashing my head with a crowbar in a fit of anger. Simon and Taylor almost jumped you right then and there for that because they thought you actually landed that blow from how I cringed.
Yes I am grateful that you helped me build that set piece. Donât get me wrong there. What pisses me off is you didnât apologize. So forget you. Iâm moving on and if you have a problem with me deleting you, take it up with yourself.
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Rae - I donât even know why I considered you a âfriendâ after what you tried to do to Ness and I. If you were my âfriendâ, you wouldnât throw such a fit over us dating. You told me you liked her but not to what extent or if you wanted me to tell her.
If I like someone as deeply as this, I will not hold back my emotions because someone I know who I consider a friend also likes them too. The early bird catches the worm after all.
I still canât believe how much you changed after ShadoCon and MegaCon. Â I thought we were close a friends especially after Mega, but I guess I was just being used to get closer to more talented and friend-worthy folk. Â That seems to be my primary use with a lot of people if I donât meet their personal expectations.
I shouldâve known and been aware of a lot of things back then that I am aware of now. Not that it wouldâve had a different outcome. I was too blind to see what all was going around me at the time. But guess whoâs eyes are opening up finally?Â
And that last little comment I saw?
'Ari no come back you're acting silly.'
No. Know why? I became self-aware with help from people I trusted more than you.
I remember you said you liked me but it was a mixture between just friends and something a little more. If you didnât like me, you shouldâve said so. Shouldâve shot me down front he beginning instead of lying to Ness then telling her the truth later on.
How very dare you play that sort of fucking game with my emotions. Shame on you.
Youâre lucky I was distracted by Karu, that lovely Davesprite, and two Wardens at Matsuri. Youâre extra lucky we had to leave before the Baccano panel too.Â
If thereâs one thing I learned from hanging around you was now I know how to completely stay away from you and that I can trust no one. I guess I should thank you for that.Â
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Angela - This is nothing negative. Iâm concerned.
Youâve been acting off for Iâd say weeks now and I sense a strange vibe coming off of you. Is there something you want to talk about? Is there anything on your mind right now thatâs bothering you?
You know Iâm always here dude. Just come talk to me. Iâve always been around. Iâm sorry Iâm not asking this face-to-face but I feel itâs awkward to do that with this vibe Iâm sensing.Â
We can either have a real chat or you can type it all out. Itâs up to you. If you want to walk around somewhere and relax, let me know. We can do that.
