#needing jesus

Will you let Him in?

D W Eldred

I'm so exhausted like actually drained. It's my brothers birthday celebration, and to be perfectly honest I kinda don't want to go. I just want to stay at home in my bed and watch movies. The semester is almost finished and I can't wait. But I got roped into this because he wasn't coming to the birthday celebration that we had for him LAST week because he couldn't get off work - even though he's the one who planned the gathering. I'm not going to be any fun, and then someone is going to be annoyed at me for not being as much fun as everyone else and it's going to spiral into something that t doesn't need to be. I have church in the morning, which isn't a bad thing, I really need to go. I need to realign in the prayerful support of my brothers and sisters. But that's a problem because my family doesn't understand that church is a priority. That the fellowship and the commitment that I made to that group of people is important. This strain and almost feeling burnt out is getting to me. I can't make the decisions anymore and I can't keep relying on myself. I try to cry out to Go because I know that he hears me but nothing is happening and I don't know how long I can keep this up. But I don't know how to do anything else. Help me.

Teach me how to love the unlovable. 

overheard on the radio

i am so frustrated right now.